Late night talk on mental health; mental illness; SAD & experiencing negative feelings (part 4)-A Chazla Fanfiction

 Author’s note: This is a work of fan fiction however this fan fiction does cope with mentions of Seasonal Affective Disorder, mentions on the signs of becoming burn out; having the suffer from the drainage of energy additionally having to deal with self-abuse on abusing yourself with the positive energy and not having to deal with the negative feelings in our life.

If you or anyone you know had suffered from any signs of distress from; please contact from the list of helpline below.

Final part of this fan Fiction I did here; the other three part are available here on my personal blog here.

This is where they recap on what are they talking here on experiencing negative feelings additionally learning how to normalize to be negative additionally to let yourself know; it's okay to feel the pain, the tears and the negative feelings based on what you are going through in particular plus having the courage to speak up about how are you feeling personally.

Part 1: https://realpaulaleah4everwrites05.blogspot.com/2021/12/late-night-talk-on-mental-health-mental.html

Part 2: https://realpaulaleah4everwrites05.blogspot.com/2021/12/late-night-talk-on-mental-health-mental_16.html

Part 3: https://realpaulaleah4everwrites05.blogspot.com/2021/12/late-night-talk-on-mental-health-mental_96.html

Disclaimer: This is only a work of a fiction therefore there is no need to take it seriously as if this happens in real life.

Late night talk on mental health; mental illness; SAD & experiencing negative feelings (part 3)-A Chazla Fanfiction

 Author’s note: This is a work of fan fiction however this fan fiction does cope with mentions of Seasonal Affective Disorder, mentions on the signs of becoming burn out; having the suffer from the drainage of energy additionally having to deal with self-abuse on abusing yourself with the positive energy and not having to deal with the negative feelings in our life.

If you or anyone you know had suffered from any signs of distress from; please contact from the list of helpline below.

Part 3 of this really long writing post here.

This is the part where they talk about how it is easy for us human beings to become a bully yet having to endure self-abuse by trying to abuse yourself to be positive whilst watching 'My Scene: Jammin in Jamaica' movie on TV plus having to learn how to feel and experience the negative feelings here.

Part 1: https://realpaulaleah4everwrites05.blogspot.com/2021/12/late-night-talk-on-mental-health-mental.html

Part 2: https://realpaulaleah4everwrites05.blogspot.com/2021/12/late-night-talk-on-mental-health-mental_16.html

Disclaimer: This is only a work of a fiction therefore there is no need to take it seriously as if this happens in real life.

Late night talk on mental health; mental illness; SAD & experiencing negative feelings (Part 2)-A Chazla Fanfiction

 This is part 2 of the Fan Fiction on how we have a late night talk on what I am going through lately.

This writing is a work of fan fiction however this fan fiction does cope with mentions of Seasonal Affective Disorder, mentions on the signs of becoming burn out; having the suffer from the drainage of energy additionally having to deal with self-abuse on abusing yourself with the positive energy and not having to deal with the negative feelings in our life.

This is the part where she talks about how her own therapist Dr Amy who actually empathizes with her about having to go through the darkness yet feeling unhappy at the same time additionally they are also watching two of the "My Scene" movies on TV while drinking a cup of peppermint tea Chaz had made earlier additionally they talk about life can be dark sometimes in addition to self-abuse on forcing yourself to be positive.

If you or anyone you know had suffered from any signs of distress from; please contact from the list of helpline below.

I don’t own the image on the list of the helplines plus I don’t have the ownership of this image below: credits of the image goes to the original person who created and upload this image on the internet here.

Disclaimer: This is only a work of a fiction therefore there is no need to take it seriously as if this happens in real life.

Late night talk on mental health; mental illness; SAD & experiencing negative feelings [Part 1]-A Chazla Fanfiction

 Author’s note: This writing is (may be) a work of fan fiction however this fan fiction does cope with mentions of Seasonal Affective Disorder, mentions on the signs of becoming burn out; having the suffer from the drainage of energy additionally having to deal with self-abuse on abusing yourself with the positive energy and not having to deal with the negative feelings in our life.

Plus there is a trigger warning on this story; it may contain mentions of Seasonal Affective Disorder; depression as well as having to experience the drainage and burn outs in particular therefore this work of Fan Fiction may not be suitable for younger readers or readers who are very sensitive towards any type of strong topics mentioned here.

If you or anyone you know had suffered from any signs of distress from; please contact from the list of helpline below.

And yes, I did mention the part about how life can be dark sometimes as it is mentioned from a book I did read in particular on “Summer Bird Blue”.

Link to the fan post dialogue I did on my Tumblr on Satou and Allisha talking about being nervous and being prepared for the big games link: 

https://aggold15hi01.tumblr.com/post/670245610374529024/nervousness-and-advices-on-preparing-for-a-big

Also I don't own any of the images or claiming that I own the image--credits of the helpline image goes to the original person who did create and upload the image on the internet.

Disclaimer: This is only a work of a fiction therefore there is no need to take it seriously as if this happens in real life.

This is part 1 of the writing here.

An Unproductive yet an "Okay" Wednesday & Terrible and a bad plus a forgettable Thursday-Personal post

Aloha and welcome back to another personal post where I am going to share about how I have an unproductive Wednesday and a terrible Thursday yet I am so fed up with today mentally and emotionally yet I did go off topic on how I am (Finally!) listening to the songs from Summer Walker's "Still over it" and having to talk about how Colbie Caillat does really soothes you down as you start visualizing a beautiful beach scenery whenever you are listening to any of Colbie Caillat's music as well.

Tumblr: https://aggold15hi01.tumblr.com/

Twitter: https://twitter.com/GoallishaPaula

WNBA Tag on Tumblr: https://aggold15hi01.tumblr.com/post/668013145163513856/the-wnba-tag

WNBA Tag on my Blogspot: https://realpaulaleah4everwrites05.blogspot.com/2021/11/the-wnba-tag.html

The WNBA tag

 Author's Note: This is a tag where I am going to do it for the very first time I am going to do it because if anyone remembers the how we used to have the internet tag on 'This or that' or a 'Would you rather' type of personal trivia tag on the internet then you definitely remember what I am talking here and I am going to post it both on here and on my personal blog as well.

Plus all of the answers are based on my own experience and my own personal view.

Additionally feel free to repost and answer those questions personally as long as you give me the credits as I originally do this idea.

Questions will all be in bold and answers will be italic.

Link to my Tumblr: https://aggold15hi01.tumblr.com

Link to my Twitter: https://twitter.com/GoallishaPaula

A memorable Sunday; first post on Tumblr and more-Personal post

Disclaimer: This post is mainly based on my own my own view plus I am only writing this from my own point of view plus this post or any of my post are not for profit use.

Update: This post is written on Sunday, November 14th and is edited and published on November 16th or November 17th.

My Tumblr (Mostly Fan Fictions, Fan posts and any pictures I would post it on there): https://aggold15hi01.tumblr.com/

My Twitter (My own tweets and tweets I would normally tweet if there is something I want to say on my Twitter): https://twitter.com/GoallishaPaula

My very first personal post I shared on here: https://realpaulaleah4everwrites05.blogspot.com/2021/11/first-personal-blog-post-terrible.html

First personal blog post-A terrible Friday; a talk on empathy and where have I been lately?

Disclaimer: This post is mainly based on my own view plus I am only writing this from my own personal point of view plus this post or any of my post on my blog are not for profit use.

Plus this post is originally written on November 12th then it is written, edited and published on November 13th.

Aloha, and welcome to my very own personal blog I am going to update this is now my official personal blog ever since I had joined Tumblr today plus the link to Tumblr is below just in case if you want to check it out along with my Twitter which now has a new username as well therefore I am going to officially now consider it as my own personal blog here:

Tumblr [Post Fan Fictions and any photos I would like to post it here]: https://aggold15hi01.tumblr.com/

Twitter [Tweets about whatever I say the first thing on my mind or something like that]: https://twitter.com/GoallishaPaula

Credits and link to positivepsychology.com on the information of empathy: https://positivepsychology.com/empathy/

Credits and link to psychologytoday.com on the information of empathy: https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/basics/empathy

Random Untitled Post on something to get off my chest-Personal Update

 Hence what the title had said as I do wanted to get something off my chest plus here is what I am going to say on what is going on in my life here plus I'll do more writing whenever I felt like it because I don't feel writing right here right now additionally it is not so simple to genuinely/ truly/ actually/ truthfully/ sincerely/ faithfully acknowledge/ understand/ know/ realize about what am I going through in real life plus I'd think the world needs more true empathy, validation and hope plus kindness [In a more 'Empathetic' type of way we are talking here] as well. In addition to leaving this image here for my Blog just for now; I am going to do more writing really soon on more Fan Fictions plus I am going to talk more in-depth about toxic positivity [I need to spell 'Positivity' correctly because every time when I type or write 'Toxic positivity' it ends up spelling 'Posivity' which is intensely embarrassing and crazy of me to write/ type this word out]; validation and hope plus empathy as well additionally in the mean time--let's all learn to have real/ true/ genuine/ actual empathy and giving others validation and hope as well plus offering ourselves the self-compassion on the validation and hope additionally the empathy we all truly deserve it here in the world for your true information here.

Credits of all of the images goes to UH Volleyball Fan via YouTube; YouTube: Spectrum Sports Hawaii/ HI; University of Hawaii: University of Hawaii Athletics Department and University of Hawaii  Rainbow Warriors Men's Volleyball Team for all of the images on Chaz Galloway.

Take care of yourself; let's learn how to spread empathy; have self-compassion: validation and hope additionally taking the time to sit in the negative feelings instead of deflecting or ignoring our negative feelings based on what we are going through in our own lives. 

Peace.

Taking a long hiatus-Personal update

 Dear readers who are reading this blog,

I am going to take a really long hiatus because I am not feeling too good with my mental health and things are not improving in real life with the MCO is still on-going and I don't know when I am going back to work plus it may be hard except sadly I am not going to continue writing until any further notice  for now and for those who are reading this blog, I wanted to send my gratitude to all and see you on the other side. 

Late night fiction: The letter of her past- A Chazla Fan Fiction

 Author's note: Decided to write this up ever since I wanted to share the writing on her family's background of how she had to go through so much during her childhood when she is still  back in New York City when she is still living with her mom/ mum and her younger brother; however not all that glitters is gold--this is an event which takes place just before the miscellaneous writing on 'Personal question on jealousy and self-love' (I love this writing very much along with 'Boy talk in the morning' Fan Fiction I did as well as 'The sights from above to below': plus links for those writing are below to read) on how I mentioned about how they had a very long conversation just when one night when the both of them decided to share about their family background however I decided to do Paula's family background with just Chaz Galloway getting to know her family background story and I am going to update it with the helplines for DV and those who are suffering from depression as well as symptoms of depression.

Remember, your life is truly valuable and precious--this is the truth.

Oh and most of my own Fan Fiction I had written or I am currently writing [Depends on how I am doing personally in real life] is always taking place back in the 2000s Eras ever since the one takes place in the cursed year on the Pandemic is 'One last walk' because I would rather let most of my Fan Fictions to be taken place before the time of the pandemic except for 'One last walk' because 'One last walk' is a more modern day setting of how today is while most of the other Fan Fictions normally takes place just before the Pandemic and the craziness we experienced during the cursed year.

Written from both character's P.O.V on first person P.O.V [Point of view].

For Domestic Violence Helpline: 1-800-799-Safe (1-800-799-7233)/ 1-800-787-3224

For texting option on Domestic Violence Helpline: 1-800-799-Safe

(*The helpline for Domestic Violence may be different for those who are living outside USA thus the two I mentioned above are for USA only however I recommend to search a helpline for domestic violence based on where are you coming from in the world.)

Trigger Warning: This story may contain mentions of child abuse [DV too as well]; parental alienation and symptoms of narcissism; depression; bullying underage drinking; abortion: cheating, smoking; drinking alcohol and taking drugs. (Plus I am completely sober and I don't do it, ever. Thus don't smoke unless if you wanted to get an addiction which can be difficult to recover, don't drink unless if you are twenty one years and above and please don't do drugs either!)

Please keep yourself away from reading this if you couldn't tolerate any of these strong topics.

Credits of Norene Iosia and Chaz Galloway image goes to Warrior World on Twitter plus Hawaii Athletics additionally University of Hawaii Men's and Women's Volleyball Team for both of the images; images are NOT completely mine. 

Plus credit of the Helpline image on how you can get in touch with them on getting the help from them; image is NOT mine.

Disclaimer: This is only a work of fiction therefore there is no need to take it seriously as if this happens in real life.

(*Update from Author: Oh man, I'd think I got out of topic when I am writing this story with all of the mental health talk plus a lot of different type of topics I am talking here plus I apologize for that.)

Miscellaneous writing on 'Personal question on jealousy and self love: https://realpaulaleah4everwrites05.blogspot.com/2020/10/miscellaneous-writing-no-2-personal.html

Boy talk in the morning: https://realpaulaleah4everwrites05.blogspot.com/2020/01/boy-talk-in-morning-university-of.html

The sights from above to below: https://realpaulaleah4everwrites05.blogspot.com/2019/10/the-sights-from-above-to-below-austin-x.html

Breakfast with friends: https://realpaulaleah4everwrites05.blogspot.com/2021/05/breakfast-with-friends-chaz-x-narrator.html

First encounter: https://realpaulaleah4everwrites05.blogspot.com/2020/02/first-encounter-chaz-galloway-and.html

A polaroid camera; photographs and memories of the past- Chapter 3-A University of Hawaii Fan Fiction

Author's note: I wasn't feeling well yesterday; plus happy birthday to Mathieu Richard yesterday on a lighter and personal note.

Don't feel like writing though but decided to do on 'Chapter 3' of 'A Polaroid Camera; photographs and memories of the past' as the last two chapters can be found below on the link.

On another serious and personal note; this event takes place before G-Voss had shaved his head off sadly since I do love him with his hair thus sorry, G-Voss; I like you with hair better. My own view, I guess.

Plus on a lighter and personal note: I enjoyed the new BTS song 'Butter'--the new song is so catchy and fun to be honest.

Anyway, enjoy this chapter from me to you.

Chapter 1- A Polaroid Camera; photographs and memories of the past

Chapter 2-A Polaroid Camera; photographs and memories of the past

Credits of images goes to University of Hawaii Athletics Department for the images of Norene Iosia, Katiana 'Ana' Ponce and Hawaii Men's Volleyball Rainbow Warriors Team on Twitter for the image of Spyros Chakas, UH Volleyball Fan; YouTube and Spectrum Sports HI for the images of Tayler Higgins: Guilherme Voss 'G-Voss' and Chaz Galloway--Images are NOT mine and I don't own anything.

Also, I only DO THIS WRITING AND THIS BLOG ONLY JUST FOR FUN; thank you.

Disclaimer: This is only a work of a fiction therefore there is no need to take it seriously as if this happens in real life.

A Polaroid Camera; photographs and memories of the past-Chapter 2-A University of Hawaii Fan Fiction

Author's note: This is the second chapter to 'A Polaroid Camera; Photographs and memories of the past' thus first chapter can be found below on the link.

Plus this is a very different writing I did for the very first time additionally this does feels like 'One last Walk' except we are going back to the 2000s Era where they used to have a lot of good Television Shows; how we used to have clam shell; flip phones as well as sliding phones and swivel phones thus the brands we used to know very well are Nokia, Motorola and Sony Ericsson which are the brands used to do a lot of good phones.

Additionally, for anyone who remembers the 2000s Eras; we also remember how we have something like really good music as well plus those forgotten brands--especially My Scene which is one of the more forgotten line which I used to love for a really long time to be honest.

In addition to doing a 'One shot' Fan Fiction on this writing; I am going to do some more writing too ever since I still remember I have a lot of the writing projects I am doing except they had been ended up being scrapped and unfinished ever since I have so much on going in my real life.

Plus I am going to write the third chapter really soon.

Link to chapter 1: https://realpaulaleah4everwrites05.blogspot.com/2021/05/a-polaroid-camera-photographs-and.html

Credits of all images goes to University of Hawaii Athletics Department; Hawaii Men's Volleyball Team and Hawaii Women's Volleyball Team plus UH Volleyball Fan; YouTube and Spectrum Sports Hawaii (Spectrum Sports HI); none of the images are mine.

Disclaimer: This is only a work of fiction therefore there is no need to take it seriously as this actually happens in real life.

A Polaroid camera; photographs and the memories of the past - Chapter 1- A University of Hawaii Fan Fiction

 Author's note: I managed to do a writing however I am going to split it into parts ever since this is a really long Fan Fiction plus I decided to add Danielle 'Dani' Evans whom her face claim is a Punahou Alumna and a former Rainbow Wahine Setter Tayler Higgins except I made a change on how she is from San Francisco additionally she met Paula much more later ever since she is good friends with *Katiana 'Ana' Ponce who is a Moanalua Alumna additionally a a former Rainbow Wahine defense specialist plus she (Dani) did met P much more later additionally Spyros Chakas who is the best friend to Chaz Galloway and *Guilherme Voss as he is an outside hitter from Greece except he is from Nea Symrni which is located in the South of the capital Athens, Greece as number twenty three additionally he is also going to be in this Fan Fiction as well.

Oh and this is the very first chapter except in this first chapter alone; this chapter may have trigger warning in this chapter alone otherwise the other chapters are okay thus I may also be writing here about the Carter Family as well ever since Paula's past does felt the same way as Nick Carter's past on his relationship despite having four siblings [R.I.P Leslie] and Paula had only a younger brother additionally she also spoke about her past about her relationship with her mom back when she is in New York City before the move with her dad to Seattle; Washington State additionally the time in Honolulu, Oahu; Hawaii.

Plus they are also going to talk about their family as well to be honest especially when they are talking about the Polaroid pictures they found in the past.

As usual; the event of this story as well as most of my writing now I am doing are actually taking place back during the 2000s Era Event Setting plus all of the events I am writing mostly take place before the upside down turn on the turn with the pandemic and the untimely events on the cursed year which is the event I would normally shy away from except for 'One last walk' which I used to do the writing because the event and setting in the  'One last walk' Fan Fiction and writing does take place during the cursed year on the start of the pandemic additionally I decided to put it on hold because I would do something with other Fan Fiction more so than 'One last walk' because 'One last walk' might be a lot too realistic in addition to how it does take place during the start of the pandemic thus I decided to let it wait as I am going to do other Fan Fictions I am going do the writing just for now on this blog.

Also I am going to do more writing from now onwards ever since I got so many writing I am planning on doing lately.

Plus this is the time when they are having their break at the Beach Walk Cafe.

*Author's note: They are the first couple and best friend whom their first appearance on this Fan Fiction I did the last time: 

https://realpaulaleah4everwrites05.blogspot.com/2021/05/breakfast-with-friends-chaz-x-narrator.html

Trigger warning: This story may have mention of a family member's death (Katiana's and Genesis's [late] father); loss of family member; alcohol addiction: abuse [All three form]: parental alienation; death threats; narcissism and murder. (So be careful when you are reading this story because you may not enjoy it if you couldn't tolerate the heaviness of these dark topics.)

Credits of images goes to Hawaii Athletics Department, UH Volleyball Fan; YouTube; Spectrum Sports HI and Hawaii Men's Volleyball Team for the images--images are NOT mine.

Disclaimer: This is only a work of fiction therefore there is no need to take it seriously as this actually happens in real life.

Breakfast with friends- A Chaz x Narrator & Katiana 'Ana' x G- Voss Fan Fiction

 Author's note: Decided to do this writing up except I am going to write something really differently for this fan fiction ever since I have the feeling of wanting to write something in this Fan Fiction.

This Fan Fiction will be with Chazla (*Obviously) and I am going to add G-Voss and Ana for the very first time in this Fan Fiction plus please enjoy this.

Oh and the event of this Fan Fiction takes place just before the pandemic and so on and so forth. 

[*Yes, obviously it takes place with the 2000s Era settings as most of my own Fan Fiction does except for "One last walk" Fan Fiction I did which is a very modern *2020 (*2020=Cursed year: full of curses.); I decided to choose a 2000s Era meets the 90s Era on most of my Fan Fiction I am writing with some of today's music on Korean Rhythm and Blues- Korean R n B music additionally Lofi music as well as Chill-hop plus Jazz-Hop.]

P.S I did this Fan Fiction writing back in March 11th this year however I didn't managed to complete it however with Korean R & B music as well as *BTS music helped me to go back to writing the abandoned/ scrapped Fan Fiction I either wanting to write except I didn't ended up finishing it or am I just being going through something personal. (*Yes, I actually love BTS music now to be honest.)

Images are NOT mine, credits to images goes to UH Volleyball Fan On YouTube for the image of Norene Iosia (*My Face Claim); Chaz Galloway; Guilherme Voss a.k.a G-Voss and Hawaii Athletics Department for the image of Katiana 'Ana' Ponce.

Disclaimer: This is only a work of fiction therefore there is no need to take it seriously as if this happens in real life.