Author's note; Chapter 2 is finally here!!! Oh wow, this is one of the toughest Fan fiction I had done it in my very own life and yet already I did wanted to take a break from doing all of the writing thus I do have other posts I also have to do it as an 'emergency edition' of the picture posts too as well on here as well therefore I am going to truthfully leave this here to let you all read the second chapter of "Australian grand Prix- A Lolex Fan Fiction'.
Also the question is 'Could James give the seat to either Logan or perhaps maybe let Alex drive his car and take his seat?
Well . . . let's find out more onto this second chapter of this particular Lolex fan fiction on here.
Trigger warning: Again; mentions of Alex' crash from the first practice session from this year's Australian Grand Prix and J*mes V*wles too ever since he decided to sign Carlos all yoo quickly obviously.
Disclaimer: I don't own the picture below and it isn't respectively mine.
Credits goes to P*ntr*st and also to everyone else whom they did magic behind the scenes both online and in person as well.
X: @GoAllisha
Tumblr: https://aggold15hi01.tumblr.com/
"Are you sure about this, my friend?" I ask him while using the word 'my friend' at the end of the sentence I had spoken earlier ever since Alex and I are now becoming more and more like best friends and brothers altogether into one just the same as how Dalton and I--we both have the same relationship as well as my friendship with Kyle Kirkwood; Oscar Piastri, Colton Herta and so much more.
"Yes, Logan." He replied; sounding meek; tired and wistful all at the same time which sounds more like a whisper and less of an answer towards my question.
I nodded; looking at him one last time before I can leave the motorhome with my pair of eyes fulfilled with the tears which it started to pour out of my eyes as it starts to roll down on my pair of cheeks on my face.
I wiped them off; I wish I have someone to speak with me about this: I don't truthfully care who is it--whether we are talking about Oscar, Kyle or even anybody else then I'll be willing to do anything to talk to them about what happened obviously.
Except I did also have a second thought as well; maybe I can simply follow *the footsteps of one of my fans whom I did read at somewhere online she did wrote out her own personal life and her own personal business in a spare journal or a diary where she can safely write out all of the emotions she does truthfully experienced in her own every day life and yet she too had a quote on how life does feels like a surf ride.
Sometimes when you did paddle out hard to truthfully get a wave then you did truthfully missed it out; sometimes when you ride a wave: all you got to do is to paddle hard to simply paddle on before you can properly learn how to stand up on the surfboard and ride the waves before you can get off the wave however sometimes when you do ride the waves and then all of the sudden; you got an unexpected surf wipe out where it does hits you hard just as when you are getting a 'wake-up' call in your very own life based on how sometimes you got to truly re-consider making the proper decisions on what are the things you wanted to do in your very own life as the life choices you did made in your very own life out of your very own decisions you always wanted to do in your very own life and yet there are certain times when you do have to re-consider all of the life choices you have to do in your very own life based on what do you truthfully want to do.
I mean sure, everyone (Including me, myself and I selfishly along with the blogger herself as well as Alex and everyone else in general obviously) did always experience a surf wipe out in their very own life but it doesn't mean you just have to simply give up on surfing obviously.
All you got to do is to truly keep paddling, keep catching waves and most of all; just keep surfing because you may never know; you know life does feels like surfing--it is way too short to simply just let many of the opportunities just simply went past by you so you sometimes all you got to do is to grasp onto the opportunity by having to paddle onto a wave where you want to truthfully catch the wave then this is where you have to paddle hard to truly catch it and ride on it ever since you may never know; when you are surfing and riding on a wave then you know that all you got to do to catch the opportunity to truly paddle on a wave you wanted to catch on it then when truthfully catch it then you definitely pop yourself up by having to truly stand up on your very own surfboard where you are currently riding on and then . . . that's when the magic happen' you do truly ride onto the waves you always wanted to ride on it obviously.
And this is what I did onto my life especially with the racing opportunities I always wanted to turn my dreams into reality and finally I truthfully did it back in my very own life plus despite how I did experienced loads of surf wipeouts as when we are talking about experiencing unexpected setbacks I did have to truthfully experienced it in my very own life additionally I do have to truly work harder and smarter to truthfully get to the position where I am now today with my dreams of being a race car driver and also to become a Formula 1 driver being fulfilled now in my very own life as well.
And it does feels as if I did truthfully countless surf rides to truthfully get where I am now today based on how I went through a very long and tough journey based on how I did tried working so hard to sincerely get where I am at today additionally I know it does feels very similar to how I kept on surfing in the waters off the long sandy shores of Waikiki with both their warm waters and also their beginners friendly surf breaks where everyone can definitely surf all season around.
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Just as when I arrived back to my garage; my tears had finally dried up; my race engineer Gaetan has ask me while I walked up to him with my head hanging low just the same as how Alex did earlier back at the motorhome; he ask me with the French accent I did recognized from him "Logan, are you feeling okay, Logan?"
"Huh? Oh, I'm sorry; sir--I am feeling okay; just feeling dazed and . . ."
"I know, you do need to do the second free practice though."
The second free practice! Sheesh; I did truly had forgotten about it and now I am feeling sincerely lost and distracted by my own train of thoughts that I am now feeling as if I am mentally swimming around and ducking under the waves at waters of Oahu, Hawaii as well.
"Hello? Logan?"
"Huh?"
"Are you okay or not?" He ask me, now sounding truthfully impatient and annoyed by how I did truthfully ignored his questions by leaving them unanswered as well.
"Sorry, but you know . . . I am feeling truthfully worried about Alex, Gaetan." I replied; feeling genuinely apologetic for ignoring his questions.
"Whoa there; mate; you need to give him the time for him to regain his composure, sir!" I heard a voice with an Australian accent caught me off guard.
I turned around my back and look at him; it is my long time trainer: Ben Jacobs whom I had worked with him for a really long time ever since he and I first met each other at a local gym in London; United Kingdom where now I did truly call it 'home'.
"Wait, what?" Gaetan ask; while I take a deep breath to simply regain my own composure and honestly; I did need to truthfully need to regain my composure however with the whole experience of how Alex and I--we both had a conversation earlier about how I am feeling truthfully worried about how Alex had been truly doing after the intense crash he did truly experience in addition to how he is truly feeling mentally; spiritually and also thoughtfully plus emotionally as well.
"Let's give him the space and time; sir. " Ben replied to Gaetan before ushering Logan to the back of the garage and this is where the both of them had decided to have a private conversation between the both of them.
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"Logan, are you feeling okay?" Ben ask me while I am looking truthfully worried about how I am now feeling based on what had happened on the conversation we (Alex and I) did had it earlier based on what happened between me and Alex plus right now; I am feeling truthfully overwhelmed by the waves of anger, hurt; sadness and pain I am now truthfully suffering to be honest and already I did felt as if I did wanted to truthfully punch a wall to leave a hole out of anger; denial, sadness and hurt based on how I am truthfully feeling right now.
I too also am shaking as well despite how I am now wearing both my fireproof undershirt as well as an outer layer of the racing suit that I couldn't even shake off the numbing feeling I am now sincerely experiencing it as well.
I don't know how I became so numb but I'd think it might be either because of how did they show a replay of Alex's intense crash or otherwise; it could have been how he (Alex) must had been truthfully feeling and honestly; I am also feeling a mixture of hurt; anger, denial and sadness on what had happened to him (Alex) earlier and honestly; I just want to do both; punching a wall and kneel down to the floor while I am wailing and sobbing out of grief and the waves of the overwhelming waves of the grieving emotions I am now truthfully experiencing inside me hence the reason why I am now shaking and trembling with nothing but anger; denial, sadness and hurt as well.
"I wish but I don't think I am, Ben." I replied while I am feeling truthfully shaken up by both the waves of the rocked emotions I am now indisputably experiencing the waves of the restrained feelings I am now realistically feeling it inside me just as when I did response to his (Ben's) question.
"I'm sorry, Logan; it must have been very hard to truthfully hear that from you, Logan." He response to me softly while more tears from my pair of Pacific eyes started falling down from my eyes to my cheeks; creating a wet, salty and smooth surface on my face.
"I know, but I felt as if I am truthfully feeling as if I am truly a burden sometimes for causing those type of troubles; burdens and turmoils that I wasn't even truthfully responsible for that and yet honestly; I still felt as if I am truthfully responsible for many of the responsibilities based on what I had done and what I hadn't done in my very own power to be honest; Ben." I replied while I bury my face into both of my hands before I started crying out of nowhere.
As I started crying; Ben gives me a hug without even saying a word about something and yet having to provide me a shoulder to truthfully cry on obviously.
While I'm crying; he told me in a soft spoken voice as he is still hugging me just as when he is the shelter and refuge for me while I am now weathering through the storms; "Remember; my friend; you aren't a burden, my friend. You're not a burden, my friend. Logan; you are not truly a burden at all; Logan Sargeant."
I nodded while I am giving out a sob to let him know that I truthfully thank him despite how I am supposed to say the word "Thank you" and not a sob however because I am feeling too equally; deeply and indisputably upset from how I am crying and sobbing now based on how I am truthfully feeling about Alex sincerely then I thank my current trainer whom I did worked with him for a very long time by a sob obviously.
"I'm sorry; Logan and yes; I do understand; my friend." He replied while all I can truthfully do is to nod silently.
After I did have a good cry and yet my tears had realistically dried up then he ask me did ask me on a pair of important questions I do need to truly answer it from Ben: "Are you feeling okay now, Logan? If so; then are you feeling good to go now, Logan?"
"I'd think I am feeling truthfully okay now; Ben and I'd think I am now feeling truthfully feeling good to go now, Ben."
"Good, now go prove yourself to prove those people wrong; kid." He replied to me while he pats on my back before I started preparing myself by putting on my pair of earplugs onto both of my ears.
I nodded then I made a silent prayer while I am preparing myself to go for the second free practice session.
Round two; here I come.
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After the second free practice where I am now positioned in P11; I did felt a waves of tension now washing over me out of nowhere and I am feeling truthfully so anxious and numb now based on how I did tried my best to get into the top ten positions despite how it is only a free practice session however I did truthfully managed to only get P11 ever since I did truthfully struggled with the battle between me and Carlos as I'd think he is trying to retain his position in P10 and I am still not feeling sincerely happy with how I did ended up with a position of P11 however in other words; as least it is better than not having to truthfully finish the practice session with a 'DNF' result especially when we are talking about the part where we now in a distressing situation only have one car with a chassis in a good condition as Alex had to now be sidelined and I am feeling truthfully worried about Alex based on how he is truthfully feeling and how is currently based on his current mental health status.
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"Logan, can I talk to you?" A voice ask me while I am now removing everything from my head and as I am now taking off my pair of earplugs from pair of ears in order to truthfully take the time to simply rest, relax and de-compress from all the of the adrenaline I had experienced it from the earlier drive at the second free practice session and although we do have a third practice session as well as the qualification by tomorrow on Saturday: I did felt as if I am now experiencing a very sick; numbing and a tense feeling in my stomach as it is now churning into huge knots of tension, fear and anger plus sadness; hurt and numbness as well ever since I did felt as if I did wanted to threw up at somewhere to let James know that I can definitely let Alex both take my car and also my seat as well while I am going to venture off into elsewhere especially when we are truly talking about how everyone and the whole team are now in an intensely distressing situation where we now having nothing except a severely destroyed car with an equally demolished chassis and a car which had been in an excellent condition as well as a chassis which hadn't been destroyed thankfully because if I am the one who had been destroyed and demolished for what I had done towards both the car and also letting the team down as well then I guess I can pretty much take the whole blame for what I had done towards them and honestly, just let someone else take my vacant seat while Alex had to sidelined for the events of the third free practice session, the qualification plus also the whole featured race as well.
Although I am now feeling truthfully cool, calm and collected all at the same time however I did wanted to let James know the whole truth about how I am going to be the one driver who is going to truthfully be sidelined for the whole third free practice session as well as sitting out for the whole qualification as well as the whole featured race as well while letting Alex taking over my seat as the golden child of the group instantly.
And now . . . I am experiencing a sickening twisted feeling in my stomach about the feeling of why would James wanted to see me or why would he wanted to talk to me obviously.
I truthfully don't know either he wants me to truthfully take Alex's seat and drive the car or does he wants Alex to take both my seat and my car obviously since he had an intense crash earlier during the first free practice session on earlier today while I am waiting for my turn.
Either way, I don't know--I just follow James into his office at the hospitality building while taking deep breath and follow him towards the direction of his office as well.
*Author's note: And if you ever read the part where it had been written about the fan part as a blogger who definitely runs on her very own blog; yes that reference is actually the reference towards the reference where I am actually the fan whom yes, she would definitely write anything in her very own diary and yes; she is actually the 'actual' Logan whom she is truly referencing to me obviously.
Also, chapter 3 is going to be on the way along with the other 'Emergency' posts edition on here too as well.
Anyway; see you next time; good luck with your very own life based on whatever endeavors you are now pursing and everything else too as well. See you then.
