Anyway; on another note--here is a short writing on New Year Eve with Austin and his family; celebrating the New Years Eve in Oahu while sitting down at Waikiki on one of their beaches.
[I hope this makes up for the failed Christmas writing attempt on the third part.]
However happy new year on 2020, everybody!!!
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Words of warning: This short story may contain kissing thus if you aren’t a fan of it, then leave immediately.
Disclaimer: This is only a work of fiction therefore there is no need to take it seriously as if this actually happens in real life.
This is mainly a work of contemporary fiction additionally these are my own ideas.
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"Hey, sweetie; it is just only a few hours before the new year and I can’t wait; baby." Whisper Austin with a smile to me while we are now shivering under the blanket we are now sharing.
Ever since it is going to be the New Year Eve; Austin and his family has decided to bring us for a very special trip to Hawaii for a couple of days just on boxing day. Although everybody decided to go back to their home to spend quality time with the family--I am the only person who did manage on deciding to go with them on the trip.
At first my father becomes very concerned about how I am planning on going to Hawaii with them however as long as I am going to be with the Matautia family then I am going to be truly okay.
His parents along with his sister Gabriella 'Gabi' whom we are both great friends now has told my dad as long as we are going to be there for a couple of days then we will come back on the January 2nd.
Now it is just the final day of the year; we are going to close this year and open another new chapter of a new year.
"Me too," I whisper to Austin with shyness in my smile. Gabi wraps her left arm around the both of us while we are still waiting for the fireworks to begin.
"You guys think you are going to kiss?" Joked Gabi however Austin gives her a playful smirk to say 'Oh yes we are going to ever since I managed to drink water and make sure my breath is minty fresh for real additionally I wear the lip gloss I got from Rosey.
[I'll do the editing another time; too much work and also I needed my well-deserved rest for a day.]
"Yes, we are going to kiss however I am nervous about it." I replied ever since I didn’t even kiss anyone before except for Austin on the cheek and vice versa on my ears and cheeks.
Austin prefers kissing me on my ear ever since we both have a strong relationship with each other; Aquarius and Libra.
"Don’t worry, it will have sparks just like the fireworks--you’ll see: Paula." Winks Austin to me.
"You sure? You all are still kids!" Protest Martin, Austin’s dad who is now sitting next to his wife and the mom; Shelly.
The ladies laughed hard while the men are now blushing with embarrassment; however I neither laughed nor I blushed: I just observe them as an outsider to their world.
Their world is so revolve in positive energy and being kind hearted towards everybody including themselves while I am the girl who had to go through a lot of rough times before my dad takes me to Seattle on gaining child custody from mom on raising me.
I sigh shyly while turning to look at the ocean, I felt like just when I wish my family is like either Michelle’s family, Promise's family or even Austin’s and Gabi's family instead of a shameful family I had on a painful yet traumatising relationships we had with each other additionally a painful experience of divorce.
He [Austin] noticed how I felt plus turn to me; asking "Are you okay?"
"Yeah, I am okay." I reply while he felt guilty about how I did come from a very painful yet a shameful family I would wish I would forget.
"But you sound like you are holding something inside you."
"I'm sorry, it is my past that holds me back: Austin."
"Oh."
I explained to him about how my past is still holding me back additionally it feels hard for me to accept the pain back then even now it burns through me like a fire burns down the forest back in California.
"Sweetie, you can’t let the past get to you--if you let the past control you; it may be hard for you to move on to the next chapter of your life just when you are stuck in your past."
"My dearest son is right, you don’t let your past control you; my dear--I know you have to go through the hard times yet however you can set yourself free by learning to acknowledge in your life on how you can’t go back in time to fix the past you had or change the story you had in your life; learning to understand your past don’t define you as who you are today in the present and learning to accept the past as what it is and leave for the present." Adds Shelly who understands how am I feeling ever the one who is an empathetic person yet is an understanding person truthfully.
"Exactly you can’t change your past however you can still write on your life story in the present day as from today onwards." Adds Gabi, who also notices how am I feeling thanks to Austin’s concern on me.
"Everybody is right, I know this is hard for you to leave the negative people however you can’t just think maybe in five years time; ten years time or even in the future; they are willing to change their ways--you just got to accept the person as who they are and let them go." Said Martin ever the wise member of the family.
Maybe they all are just right; I am not only holding back my past additionally I am still thinking about whether the person is going to ever to change or not in a couple of years time or even sometimes in the future.
My friends, Austin and his family are right--if I ever continue doing this--it felt as if I am eating myself up in pain; negative energy and worse, I let myself suffer more and more by the day.
[I am going to write but not always; everybody. Depends on how am I feeling additionally where am I now and so on and so forth.]
"You’re right, maybe I am making myself worse day by day on holding to the past; the broken hopes and promises on others, especially when it comes to their characters as well as how I had to always please them to gain their attention." I piped up while looking into Austin’s beautiful pair of colour changing eyes.
"Exactly, when it comes to the new year: the question is 'Are you ready'?" Asked Austin who looks nervous about how am I going to accept my past.
"Ready for what?"
"Ready to leave the past as the past in your life while learning to accept your past as your past."
"I . . . I . . ."
"Remember, it maybe hard to let it go but you know . . . acceptance can be like forgiveness for sure. I learned to accept mine."
"Oh,"
"Trust me, you will learn to do it additionally you know you got something inside you." He said softly with a genuine smile on his face.
I nod with a truthful smile on my face while we heard people suddenly counting down till the New Year as the clock strikes at midnight.
"It may be hard however you can do it, I believe in you." He winks at me with the same smile.
I nod some more with the smile, I am ready to let it go.
And when I am ready; I am ready to accept the past in my life as the past: additionally I am ready to close the old chapter and open a new chapter in my life plus I am ready to be with Austin.
"I am ready."
However I finished saying 'I am ready' as my answer; then all of the sudden there are booming sound which sounds like a thunder booming all across Waikiki while everybody is now cheering on the New Year.
"Oh,"
"Are we too late?"
"We are but who cares."
I chuckled then we both get closer and our lips locked in a first New Years Eve kiss we both experienced for the very first time in years.
Okay, this is a very short writing but sometimes you just got to let go of your past by accepting your past as your past in your life additionally learning to let go of the negative energy and staying positive.
I know it is hard for us to move on from our past in our life however don't let your past define you.
I believe in you.
The source I learn to accept the past is from a book called 'The art and power of acceptance: your guide to inner peace' by Ashley Davis Bush Licsw which I did recently read and I love the book plus I am planning to read more books in 2020 additionally to do yoga and meditation other than writing.
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