However I do want to let everyone know this Fan Fiction can be very suggestive therefore I would proceed with caution especially when it comes to the posts you are definitely consuming either on my Tumblr or on here as my personal blog obviously.
Thus . . . I do have to truthfully say "Is it just me or am I feeling truthfully tired of the disrespect towards both V-Cha and Logan Sargeant?" I mean I know both V-Cha and Logan are different as Logan is an individual person and a human being meanwhile V-Cha is a girl group whom they are formed by both JYP and his company JYP Entertainment Company however I do truthfully think they both deserved the equal level of respect in my very own opinion just as when they both are in very different categories sincerely.
Anyway; that is just my own thoughts which is going to be saved for another day and another time obviously.
Plus also, on another stern note: can I truthfully say I am feeling truthfully feeling both fed up and angry towards both JV and El*n? I mean for El*n, it is definitely how he makes X a lot less fun and no wonder I do have to resort to waiting for a long time for a personal reason. (Although I want to carry on using it since I am usually very active there however nowadays it's like I can only use it for a period time which does truthfully makes me feeling truthfully angered by what he had truthfully done obviously.)
Also to El*n M. And J.V: I'm going to truthfully chase you and catch you obviously for real!
Anyway, enjoy this unexpected Fan Fiction project from me to everyone since it has been a very long while I did an actual Fan Fiction on here therefore consider this to be a self-indulge fan Fiction from the author herself as this is soncisdered to be my very first Logan Sargeant and narrator Fan Fiction obviously.
Also, can we talk about the part where I do wanted to do a SMAU but it more so on the every day shenanigans and the bugaboos that both the main protagonist (Gender neutral) and Logan would go on in their very own day-today; daily lives on what are the activities they would share it online except for the more important parts where it is truthfully important to settle it however it isn't something to realistically reveal it online to due to personal information which are meant to be kept private sincerely.
Plus here are the disclaimer and the trigger warnings as well:
Disclaimers; This is only an actual fan work of a Fan Fiction therefore there is no need to truthfully take it seriously as if it does truthfully happens in real life obviously.
And none of the pictures are mine plus I don't own any of them at all. Credits goes to Logan Sargeant and Allisha Gray plus WNBPA for the pictures.
Trigger warning: Mentions of self-ab*se from the narrator herself.
(Unfortunately; this is something I did truthfully went through a personal struggle with so if you or anyone whom you do truly know them did truthfully struggle with self-ab*se not only emotionally but physically; physiologically: mentally; spiritually or all of the above then please immediately contact any of the available helplines you can reach out to them for the steady support they can truthfully provide it to you just as you can truly confide in them if you are unable to either express the 'true' emotions to the people whom you know them very well or otherwise; please seek professional help immediately if you or your loved ones are experiencing any signs of the sturggles with self-ab*se. It didn't have to be physically but also emotionally; physiologically: mentally; spiritually or all of the above.)
Anyway, proceed with caution when you are reading this self-indulge Fan fiction from me you all.
Also, on a lighter note: shoutout to all of the Logie bear fans internationally on both X and also on Tumblr as well especially the ones who does truthfully respect and love him in very different way.
Plus since we are on the topic of Logan Sargeant; I'm going to pretty much say in my very own opinion he is truthfully number 1 in the 'favorite drivers by visuals' F1 Driver category with Charles in number 2; Estie (Esteban Ocon) is number 3; George Russell is number 4, Alex Albon is number 5; Oscar is number 6; Sir Lewis Hamilton is number 7 and Zhou Guanyu is number 8 in my very own opinion. (No 'true' full-on level of offense to everyone who is also reading this paragraph in my very own opinion obviously plus those are my top 8 'favorite drivers by visual' driver in my own opinion.)
Tumblr: https://aggold15hi01.tumblr.com/
X: @Lolexer223
Also a words of warning when you are editing your personal blog post under Blogger/ Blogspot: Don't consider editing any posts you want to consider doing it on the mobile website especially if this is a Blogspot/ Blogger post as I have to re-edit this post.
Instead wait until either you get fully repaired laptop or otherwise; consider getting either a brand new laptop or a smarter choice: an actual computer or even an iMac with the biggest storage you can get it as part of the configuration.
Let's just say I am an 'Anti laptop' woman as I do find laptops can be such a nightmare especially when your laptop had stopped working altogether; gone permanently dead and unresponsive and when the old laptop you had use does felt laggy performance wise ever since they do truthfully age overtime.
Plus again; always to make sure you always back-up everything into a hard-ware disk drive as well as all of the bookmark links by saving it into the unsent/ unsend email drafts you can compile it altogether separately by copying and pasting any of the bookmark links you wanted to to truthfully save it.
No excuses for anything; just back-up every now and then whenever you can from your computers and laptops just in case if your computer or your laptop crashes. (A serious lesson to be learned obviously.)
Won't be publishing this on Tumblr because concerns of how there are mentions of self ab*se but religion beliefs too thus this is something I am not publishing it there due to personal reasons and I am going to publish all of my writing with the Christian Elements onto my personal blog here since I don't want to either truthfully scare anybody with any of the story which does have the religion beliefs.
Anyway; very long update on the author's note from the author herself. See you on the other side. Plus can we also talk about Allisha Gray looks adorable in thge WNBPA Picture with an exclusive outfit I could imagine Zhou can definitely transform her into a modern day Cinderella while Logan is definitely Allisha's own modern day prince charming meets a modern day Prince Eric from "The little mermaid" meets Sebastian and Jared from both "Into the blue" movies. (Yeah, let's just say Logan does gives me a bit of the late and the great Paul Walker vibes in my very own opinion; literally.)
Plus Paula's face claim is Allisha Gray but her speaking voice is similar to Dewanna Bonner just in case if you are wondering.
Update on October 15th 2024: I have to edit this post ever since I am truthfully unimpressed with the editing of this post clearly.
"Logie, do you still truthfully love me? Especially when you did have someone whom unfortunately they did truthfully struggle with self-ab*se all the time: Logie."
"Oh, what exactly are you talking about there?"
"I mean . . . I am asking you the question 'Do you still truthfully love me? Especially when you had someone who is truthfully struggling with self ab*se in any different types of form; Logan. I mean not just physically; but also mentally; emotionally: physiologically, spiritually or all of the above."
"Wait, what? What were you truthfully asking me; Paula?" Ask a surprised Logan while he gotten up from the cream color leather couch we have in our apartment.
"I mean. . . I did ask a you a question on 'Do you truthfully love someone whom they did struggle with self-ab*se: Logan. Especially when we are talking about a person whim they dejectedly did have to struggle with self ab*se and yet I know it does feels truthfully hard for me to truthfully ask this type of question but . . . I am just feeling truthfully and deeply scared and anxious you might not ever since you do realize I do truthfully struggle with how I am always ab*sing myself all the time and yet I am always beating myself emotionally by going really hard on myself and yet having to make such poor choices and poorly made decisions I didn't meant to truthfully do that and . . ."
"Oh no, oh my goodness; Paula. Please; don't truthfully day that to me not only because you are truthfully giving me a scare but also at the same time you are also giving me a huge scare when you had mentioned the earlier question to me when you ask me do I truthfully still love someone whom they had been struggling with self ab*se but when you did mentioned the part where you feel abandoned then oh my goodness; you are giving a bigger scare just as when you asking me to surf onto the big waves of Makaha or Haleiwa during the winter season, my dear." He said while he rushed towards me and immediately threw me into a hug as well.
Honestly I truthfully don't know why would he the himself into an unexpected hug where I hadn't even expected it out of nowhere and also it does feels as when he does felt truthfully heartbroken to hear the words I had mentioned it earlier to him obviously.
"Are you sure, Logan?"
"Absolutely; I mean when I first heard that; you are giving me a serious scare out of nowhere thus no 'true' offense to you though however god and I--we do truthfully want to let you know you are the most amazing person in the world despite how you had asked me the question on do I still truthfully love either you or someone whom obviously they did struggle with how they have been sabotaging themselves; Paula."
"Oh, are you really sure about this: Logan? I don't know if you truthfully do and all but still . . ."
"I know, I know but you did truthfully gave me a huge scare; again; no 'true' offense to you in general but I am feeling deeply burdened and sadden by hearing the words you had said you have been ab*sing yourself: Paula." He replied to me while he is truthfully giving me an actual hug just as when he buries deeply inside me.
"I know: I am completely really sorry for giving you a scare to be honest but I do want to truthfully let you know I do truly struggle with self ab*se over the years as you know we are usually the type of people whom we do have to truthfully work really hard to definitely get what we want and honestly . . . I know you don't truthfully believe me and all . . . But still . . ."
He shushes me by by putting his right index finger onto his lip and said "Ssshhh . . Whatever you are truthfully going through; my love, I am always here for you; my love."
"Wait, you will?"
"I will, Paula."
Just as when he is truthfully giving me a hug and whispering the most supportive and caring words towards me; I did whispered to god about the prayers I did wanted to say it out loud towards god on a prayer I would like to definitely say it out loud:
"Dear god, please: please give us the actual help; the encouragement and the support we both truthfully needed it from you right here right now; god.
"Please give us the well-deserved help and support we both needed it from you and we know it does truthfully feels tough for the both of us to definitely share this with you however we do want to truthfully let you know that we both had hopelessly had asked for it, god. Please; god; please."
"I know it is truthfully too much for the both of us ask for it however we do want to let you know we both are truly and deeply sorry for what we have done to you by having to commit all of our s*ns and please, please forgive us for what we both have truthfully done as we truthfully didn't meant to truthfully hurt each other in addition to how we didn't mean to truthfully hurt our loved ones too as well ever since we all do know we do struggle with the waves of emotions which although you did wanted to be patient however it is truthfully hard for the both of us to truthfully experience the pain however we do want to truthfully let you know; we both are feeling truthfully sorry for what we have done towards each other, our loved ones and everyone else too as well.
"Please, forgive us; god; for what we had truthfully done both towards each other and our loved ones as well as ourselves individually too as well although it may have nothing to do with the problem between us on the relationship between Logan and I--except on another note: we do truthfully wanted to let you know we both are truthfully sorry for our own actions based on what we had done towards him."
"Plus I know it may sounds truthfully way too much for us to ask however we do want to truthfully strengthen the relationship between the both of us as well as the strength between you, me: Logan and of course; all of us; god."
"God, we know it maybe too much for the both of us to definitely ask for both of us on both your steady and indefinite love, support; blessing; protection; understanding and the validation as well as we both know the part on how we both wanted you to bless us, love us; protect us, support us; acknowledge us and validate us as well in an unconditonal type of way just as how you can keep an eye on us spiritually and yet having to give the both of us individually and as an actual couple then this is where you had given us the steady and the endless blessings and support you would always provided it to us and we have to admit; we didn't meant to truthfully forget you; god.
"Also, please forgive me too as an individual person whom she non-stop emotionally ab*sing herself every now and then by how she had been going hard on herself however I do want to let you know that I am truthfully sorry too for having to truthfully criticize myself every now and then as you know that everyone and everything including Logan, my friends; his friends and I are the creations you have wonderfully made all of us; god."
"And I know you are feeling truthfully worried about the both of us as both individuals and as a couple as well. Please forgive us for what he had done and we also want to let you know we both are genuinely sorry for what we have doen towards ourselves and to everyone else as well for commiting our s*ns too as well."
"Plus also in other words; please help me to break free of the self-cycle of the ab*se I had to truthfully went through in my very own life on how I had truthfully ab*sed myself and I am feeling sorry for that; god. But on another note; I do want to truthfully say 'Thank you so much' and 'mahalo nui loa'; god for how you had truthfully given both of us both individually and as a couple the stength; the encouragement; the blessing and also the steady and indefinite love too as well in our very own lives and we didn't meant to truthfully take it for granted obviously.in our very own lives thus we are truthfully asking and praying for both forgiveness and the blessing as well. Also, in other words; we do truthfully love you as well; god."
"All in the name of Jesus and god; amen."
"Paula? Paula?! Paula!" Logan called me while I had fallen asleep just as I am still wrapped around in his hug while his pair of arms had wrapped around me in addition to how he is now snuggling on my right shoulder and already I did felt as if he does truthfully woke me up out of a deep slumber I had fallen asleep into it while I am burying on Logan's left shoulder.
"Huh? Oh sorry, what had happened?"
"You just fallen asleep while I am giving you a hug; it seems as you are snuggling with me while I am hugging you thus honestly; you did truthfully ended up snuggling with me: Paula."
"Really?"
"Absolutely." He replied with a warm, welcoming and an unbiased smile on his face.
Then we both hugged each other before we part ways to do the tasks we both needed to do individually.
