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Trigger warning: Mentions of self-sabotage; self-harm and self-hate.
Author's note: Originally written and edited on September 12th via my poor performing Asus A55v however it is published and posted to my personal blog on September 13th which means . . . you guest it; Friday the 13th obviously.
Aloha,
Although not many people were expecting this to be a life update however I do wanted to let you know what is going on in my very own life lately ever since the last time I did truthfully made a post on my personal blog here.
Okay, so starting off with the bad news; unfortunately my 6 year old (And possibly assumed to be) dead Macbook Pro had taken it's own life and already I am feeling deeply angered; hurt and saddened by the part where my 6 year old Macbook pro had taken it's own life and many of you are wondering which model is it; I would say it is the 2019 Model which does have a touch bar that at first it can be truthfully be useful however after a very long while, it does feels truthfully useless ever since there are very little to truthfully no effort of having to put in the hard work onto the touch bar leading to another change into the Macbook for the next year and by the time when they did managed to truthfully removed the touch bar altogether in addition to also changing the key board mechanism from the delicate butterfly mechanism which is supposed to be similar to a pair of butterfly wings flapping however instead it does causes more problem which I am feeling truthfully happy about the change to the Macbook on both the removal of the touch bar in addition to reverting the keyboard back to the scissors mechanism towards the keyboard however despite how so many people are feeling truthfully angry and upset about how they did made the decision to truthfully remove the touch bar altogether; however I do have to truthfully agree to disagree about the addition to the touch bar ever since I'd think the touch bar may be useful at first however after a long while of using the Macbook Pro; I would think it might be either be best as an optional thing where customers can either choose to add it to their Macbook or otherwise it would be best to remove it from the Macbook laptop altogether.
In addition to how my 6 year old 2019 Macbook pro had gone dead for good and yet i had even truthfully think about it isn't going to be permanently be fixed for good ever since the problem might be too intense to be fixed up as one of my assumption; another assumption I would also have is I am going to lose everything from this particular 6 year old Macbook Pro altogether which means dejectedly; I'll have to start all over with a brand new Macbook in addition to also how sadly I'll also truly have to truthfully say both a permanent and also a heavy-hearted dejecting goodbye to my 6 year old Macbook Pro as I do have to put it to rest and to add the insult into the wound; I'll have to truly restart all over again with a brand new Macbook if the issue is too deep to be properly fixed in addition to also using a laptop which does feels truthfully deeply both laggy and also how the performance had slowed down on the Asus A55v which surprisingly; I didn't even truthfully expected it to work for a very long time however I'll have to truthfully rethink about getting another laptop to truthfully start all over again.
Oh and since we are on the topic of the worst assumptions I do have to truthfully say, think and definitely to accept the fate of what had happened to my 6 year old permanently and equally both dead and unresponsive Macbook Pro:
-When I do need to truthfully charge my Airpod Max; I didn't truthfully realize how I did ended up opening so many tabs on the Chrome Browser and honestly; one of the things I do truthfully wish is that I can truly sync the account with the browser therefore many of both the bookmarks and all of the extensions from there can definitely be accessible through the other devices once you did definitely put the account on sync however if you do truthfully sign out of the account then you do have to truthfully sign in again to definitely gain the items you did have managed to sync it with your account obviously.
-Another problem I do have is both my poor punctuality and time management; and when I did truthfully say that; yes, both my time management and punctuality are very poor in general ever since I am always someone who is always and truthfully very late every now and then which can feel truthfully annoying to certain people in general as I am not usually the type of person who can definitely be either be early or be on time ever since you know I do have a job where I have be heavily invested in the job working at a Traditional Chinese Clinic which is actually ran by my very own estranged family as there are only two staffs which my very own estranged birth mother is the one who is in charge of doing many of the tasks while I on the other hand am working as a receptionist as well as having to truthfully do the tougher tasks as well such as changing the used sets of bed sheets and a set of towels where I do have to remove it before spraying a spritz of alcohol to definitely sanitize the massage beds especially around the hole where you have to truthfully place your face down there while the people whom they are doing either the treatment or the massaging just for you; they'll do it on the back and this is where I do have to truthfully sanitize that particular area of the massage bed due to the concerns of C-19 therefore I do have to truthfully wait for a few minutes to make sure it is truthfully dry to definitely put on a clean set consisting of a clean massage bed sheet as the very first layer of a massage bed before putting on a layer of big towel as well as another clean big towel where it does works as a blanket and then after that; I needed to add a small towel where I have to place it on a pillow which does came with the massage bed to add as a finishing touch plus if you ever truthfully ask me do you truthfully think it is very easy for me to do this type of task; however with my poor level of punctuality and yet how sometimes my level of focus does feels very off as it does truthfully bounces from the actual business side of the focus to rather focus more so of what do I truthfully want to do to be honest which can be irritatingly painful at times when you are not truthfully putting in enough level of the focus on your very own job and sometimes i do truthfully wish it can be very simple to truthfully put the full-on level of focus on the job however there are certain times where you do have to truthfully be patient just as when there are days when there aren't any customers coming to the shop at all plus this is one of the more precious lessons we do have to truthfully learn from it ever since the one important and also an equally precious lesson we don't truthfully realize is that when you are truthfully running a business; you aren't going to both truthfully and realistically it is going to take loads of time to definitely let the business grow in order to let it became successful thus it does feels challenging as usually patience is always one of the toughest character trait to truthfully accept it however I guess sometimes we may need to truthfully know that loads of great things doesn't always truthfully happens as an instant overnight challenge as at times; it does truly takes a very long time to truthfully let the business grow as it does truthfully requires a lot of patience and I do truthfully wish we can definitely understood about how important it is for us to definitely be patient when it comes to the process of growth ever since so many great things and great events does takes greater time and a much greater process as sometimes we may never know when we are going to truthfully get the chance to experience both the growth of the process not just only by watching it but also by working on it as well.
And this is a stern lesson we all definitely can learn from this type of experience despite how the level of patience isn't always very easy for everybody however I'd think it is truthfully safe to say selfishly however . . . I do truthfully think this is a major stern lesson I'll definitely learn from it the next time when i am owning another Macbook as well as having to definitely writing a list of what do i need to truthfully do as an important task especially when we are truthfully talking about the part where I do have to truthfully work on the tasks I'll have do it on my off days by having to make sure I do needed to save whatever is truthfully important and precious towards me ever since I do truthfully know that having a Macbook can truthfully be merciless at times especially when you definitely lost all of your very own precious files, notes; bookmarks from the browsers you are truthfully using it and yet; it does feels as if we did taken it for granted when we are truthfully owning an actual Macbook laptop for real.
Also, I do have to admit; having to truthfully experience of how owning a Macbook of your own does feel truthfully merciless at times especially onto the part where it is all too easy to get loads of issues with both the Macbook and having to lose of your precious contents from there altogether is one of the scariest part to truthfully experience it altogether.
-A busy schedule- Just as what I had mentioned it earlier; it does feels truthfully very tough to simply do it every now and then ever since I am now living at a brand new housing area where the journey between both work and home plus vice versa does last for about one hour long ever since I did truthfully felt as it does feels very hard to put the focus especially after you had to truthfully experience a very long hours of working and also another long hour of having to went through a very long journey back home and going to work at the same time thus I do truthfully think it does feels truthfully way too much especially when we are truthfully talking about the part where you have to went through a very long journey between both work and home plus I do truthfully think this does truthfully reminds me of how I do need to work on my schedule especially when we are truthfully talking both the work and the non-work/ life schedule as usually work-life balance does feels truthfully very challenging and tough ever since this isn't truthfully something everyone can definitely think it might be very easy thus as a person who does prioritize work way too heavily and having a bad habit of procrastination; it does feels truthfully very hard to truthfully even put in any thoughts about taking a step back from work ever since I do truthfully had suffered from the part where I do have to do loads of work on a combination between both my own work and also my actual job working at my very own family's clinic as well.
-Not planning out properly- This is a serious lesson i do have truthfully take especially when I am owning a Macbook; I do truthfully need to plan out when do i need to save the precious bookmarks as well as the files I needed to do by saving through the different email platforms where I did thankfully had done it before however this is a stern lesson I may have to learn just as when my 6 year old Macbook Pro had taken it's own life as I do truthfully assumed it is now both dead and unresponsive plus I don't think they can truthfully fix my now 6 year dead and unresponsive Macbook Pro.
Anyway, since I do have to do this post from the Asus A55v which I do have countless issues with it since I truthfully hated how I do have to restarted so many times and to truthfully add the insult into the wound; I do have to truthfully restart both the modem and the router due how it has been unable to truthfully gain the connection sometimes after I am half-way browsing through the internet and honestly; I do have to truly admit; using an old but a laggy and a poor-performing laptop is just truthfully loads worse than to definitely spend loads of budget on repairing on both an unresponsive and a dead Macbook Pro at an Apple Technology store.
On another note: ever since I did truthfully have changed my username on X which is formerly known as Twitter; I am going to put the focus on Allisha Gray aside for the time being ever since I did found out that I did am focusing more on Lolex for the time being therefore if anyone wants to check there; it is now under the username 'Lolexer223' which is my brand new username of the X account I owned.
Anyway, not an expected 'life update' post however I do wanted to post it on here ever since it has been a long while I did life a 'life update' post and in case if you are wondering "Will I definitely be putting the focus on both Lolex and also Logan Sargeant plus Alex Albon?" I would say . . . "I'll definitely put the focus on them as well but only if I can properly take the time to definitely work on the projects I am going to work on them based on how my schedule is" However it is going to take a very long while which I'd think it might have gotten to the point where by the time around many years later as I am turning into an old lady who is either truthfully living alone or even when she is truthfully living with her family until they are peacefully gone from life; then this is where I have to truthfully figure out my life either sooner or later on except the one serious particular thought I didn't realize is that they are truthfully getting old and yet here I am; not having to properly plan out my very own life yet and I am just truthfully letting myself living the same old life just as when i didn't even want to truthfully put into any thoughts about what am I going to truthfully next especially I do needed remember there is more to life than to definitely just sitting in a bedroom where all you did is just nothing but to truthfully browse the internet online all day every day without even giving in any proper thoughts to definitely think about what do you have to truthfully do in your very own life especially the question is "When are you actually going to definitely start your very own life without having to truthfully rely on both your very old pair of parents as the main source of income?" And the other question is "And when you can learn how to truthfully be more open-minded and letting yourself understand about how it is truthfully okay to truthfully made mistakes in life; knowing making mistakes does truthfully helps you to truly give you an experience of learning something new in addition to how it is truthfully okay to truthfully okay to truly make mistakes at times; knowing it is going to truly learning experience in life in addition to understanding how both failures and mistakes are truthfully going to give you a precious lessons to be learn and yet it does helps you to be more open-minded and become less close-minded especially when it comes to both mistakes and failures plus errors--thus why do we look at it as something to be feeling dejected about?"
After all, it may feel very tough to truthfully not to make any mistakes just as far as when we are truly learning about something new however I do truthfully wish that mistakes aren't something to be either look as it as something terrible and bad or worse; something which does throws us into a deep and vicious cycle of having to wallow ourselves in both self-pity and also self-sabotage as well as self-sabotage isn't truthfully something I did truthfully understand until when i had gotten a book where it does have a compilation of quotes along with different illustrations which does have both animals being illustrated in a cute style in addition to the mystical creatures (I'll update it on my X account when I get the chance to know what the actual title of the book is) in the book as well therefore let's just say . . . self-sabotage is one of the character traits and also an insecurity where I did had went through an experience of it and yet to this day; I am truthfully still struggling with both self-sabotage and also self-hate not in a physical way of self-harming myself but more so as in mentally, emotionally; physiologically and spiritually which is exactly why I did highly said about the words: "May you be blessed in every steps of the way unconditionally to god" to everyone thus when there is one thing I did wanted everybody to truthfully do is to definitely wish them well to make sure they can do well in general even if they did made countless mistakes; errors and have to truly experience actual failures except if there is another precious lesson we all need to truly understand from that type of experience; it is to definitely know it is truthfully okay to truly experience the countless mistakes; errors and failures we all have experienced in their very own respective lives however if we don't then the question is "Did we truthfully learn anything from this type of experience?"
Also, if you did found out I am using the same words on repeat over and over again just as when I am repeat it on loop just as when I am becoming both an old and broken recorder repeat the same words over and over again: I am truthfully very sorry about that because this post is entirely based on the real life events I did have to truthfully went through in my very own life and if you think I am definitely crazy for having to use the same words over and over again on many of posts on both here and my Tumblr as well as my X account plus the comments I did left on certain videos on YT then I hate to truthfully say this however if there is one actual thing you do needed to have: I would say it is definitely both genuine and the endless kindness and compassion are the two critical traits you do need to truthfully have in your very own life when you are truthfully treating someone in the way you wanted to be treated by other people and vice versa on how do they wanted to be treated by you thus all you got to do is to definitely treat people in the way you wanted to be treated and give them the well-needed support when they did hit their lowest point in their very own life and remember those words: "Don't judge a book by it's cover" and again, if you don't have anything nice to say in general; it is best not to truthfully say anything at all especially if they are truly the words when you did truthfully say something that you definitely regret it later on based on what do you have to truly say something about either the other person or anything else in general.
Anyway, this is a very long and very lengthy post but since this is a post on my very own personal and precious blog I have been running it on my own terms for a very long time in addition to how I do have loads of things to truthfully say something about my very life then I don't think I should definitely apologize for having to truthfully create a long and lengthy post especially if it is definitely either my very own writing project or even when it is a life update post just like this one to be honest.
On another note: thank you for having to truthfully reading this long and lengthy life update post I got to truthfully write up on my personal blog and although I'll be very busy with my very own life however I'll definitely keep on updating with my very own life updates on this personal blog here and I'll see you all on the other side.
Until then . . . may god bless you; protect you, believe in you; love you and support you in every steps of the way unconditional and good luck in general.
