Author’s note: This post is actually reflected and based on the writers own personal experience in real life additionally this post may have been split into parts otherwise this post is available on my Tumblr:
https://aggold15hi01.tumblr.com/
Continuation from the other posts.
Part 1: https://realpaulaleah4everwrites05.blogspot.com/2022/11/life-update-28th-november-2022-part-1.html
Part 2: https://realpaulaleah4everwrites05.blogspot.com/2022/11/life-update-28th-november-2022-part-2.html
Thus this is the reason why I am feeling very stressed out lately as well other than the move, how I couldn't recover the 2nd Pinterest Account that I have and yet, having to recall how I have changed the email address linked to an email address account on Gmail that I simply deleted out of an uncontrollable rage that I did go through while living at the old home additionally having to move to the new home so quickly just a couple of days before my father's birthday (Plus Thanksgiving day as well) as well in addition to moving to a new home and living in the new home where it didn't felt like a proper home at all and it does feel more like a hotel where you have to very much stay for a very long time. (Despite the benefit of how I am grateful that I can manage to go the park safely in addition to having my own bathroom in my very own new bedroom in comparison to the adjoining bathroom that I used to have in my old bedroom at my old home.)
One last thing before I close out this post about why I have been feeling stressed lately; the job that I am working at a Traditional Chinese Medicine Clinic which is actually owned and ran by my mother as I am working multiple jobs as a receptionist; a nurse additionally a cleaner as well to clean the whole shop as well as a person who is in charge of having to change the used bed sheets and the used towels on the massage bed; it does really take a genuinely big toll on me and my very own life as it does sucks my very own soul and energy that I have in my very own life which is the reason why I have more stress in my very own life in general however I really don't know how can I simply look for a new job ever since I am still feeling very new towards the adulting world (You can tell that I didn't went to a University or College due to numerous personal reasons why but that is another post for another day.) additionally I really don't know how to look after myself and having to manage myself properly ever since I felt as if I hadn't been taught anything by both of my parents plus I really don't know how to manage myself properly additionally you can tell that I have to stay with this job not because I have to truly do it but more so because I not only am feeling desperate for the money to make sure that I am financially stable but also I really need to make sure that I am financially stable and yet having to learn so many different things that you are normally not being taught at environments at school as at times; sadly: nobody is going to truly going to help you to be honestly I am so sorry if I am ranting so much in this post about the level of stress that I am truly going through in my very own life from how I am unable to retrieve the Pinterest account as it is sadly linked to an email address account that I couldn't retrieve from Gmail (Lesson learned about how you shouldn't delete your email address account unless if you wish to stop subscribing the newsletter from the company that you are being subscribed to automatically for several different reasons plus I wish I can truly understand but you can tell that I am being very naive and foolish at that time to be honest for real!) as I already deleted it out of rage followed by how am I still feeling upset with how my parents simply never acknowledge how are the boundaries in many different relationships are very important as it is a way of giving you the space, the privacy and the time to instantly take really good care of yourself additionally having to move to a new home so quickly that does feels more like staying at a hotel for a really long period of time more so than having to stay a "Real home" and yet having to shift to relocate yourself and your very own life in a brand new place where you are going to call there "Home" especially if it is just ca couple of days before anyone's birthday and yet they had plan a move by having to think very quickly about the move without your acknowledgement and having to simply have a one-on-one private conversation additionally having a job where it does feel very thankless additionally having to experience so much pain from a soul-sucking job plus having to stop celebrating your birthday (And truthfully/ truly surrounding yourself) with the type of people who are sucking away all of your energy just as when they are vampires who are already sucking away all of your own energy and all of your well-being as well despite how it didn't have to be just the "So-called" friends or the internet trolls, the people who have nothing but jealousy and hatred towards you but it also included the people who are in your very own life as well as they are part of your "Family"/ "Ohana" plus despite how they may call themselves "Family members" on a "Father"; a "mother"; a "sister"; a "brother"; a "cousin": a "relative": an "aunt": an "uncle": a "grandmother"; a "grandfather"; the "relatives", the "cousins"; the "grandparents"; the "parents" and everybody else in your ohana/ family where they had called you all of these "Ohana"/ "Family" labels yet they had sucked away all of your energy from your well-being additionally it does feel very hard to simply surround yourself with the people who wanted to simply suck away all of your very own energy from both your own soul and your well-being in your very own life in general to be honest additionally having to truly use you by having to take an advantage of you and having to make you a subject of gossip to be honest as it does feel very sad to simply to grow in an environment where you have more people who are being very toxic towards you plus they did suck all of your energy from your very own life and you very own well being additionally having to take an advantage of you; making you a subject of gossip towards everybody else additionally having to cause a lot more stress than you actually think in your very own life to be honest.
Also, to whom it may concern: if you have reach this far on this long and rant(y) post on the life update I have decided to share it with you on both Tumblr and my personal blog (here) as well on my Blogger or Blogspot: then I did want to let you know that if you are feeling truly alone about having to simply surround yourself with the people who did truly suck away all of your energy from your very own soul as well as your well-being and yet you are being surrounded by the people who are draining all of your precious energy from your own soul and well-being in your very own life: I can genuinely feel your pain about this type of situation because I have to very much go through the same thing in my very own life with my very own ohana/ family in my very own real life to be honest additionally if you did find it is hard for you to simply stay away from them and yet having to (Forced to) stay in a relationship with them authentically then don't worry, I did feel your pain about this type of experience since I have to go through the same type of experience that I have to very much go throughout my very own life in general plus honestly it does feel very sad to experience the pain that you have to very much go through in your very own life additionally I would also like to wish you all the very best of luck of having to surround yourself with the people who did get the best of you at heart additionally having to acknowledge the flaws; insecurities and all of the pain that you experienced in your precious as well having to protect your energy additionally having to reach out to any available resources that you can reach for any type of help that you want to simply talk about in your very own life to be honest as well as having to start a brand new chapter in your very own life story in general. (Not only to make sure that you are surrounding yourself with the people who can genuinely get the best of you at heart authentically additionally having to seek any available sources that you can truthfully reach out for help to anyone or anybody who can truly help you with the personal pain that you are truthfully going through in your very own life to be honest. Wishing you all the very best of luck from me to you.)
Plus thank you so much for reading this post on my very own life update if you are reading this part on this personal life update on my personal blog on Blogger/ Blogspot to be honest and I wish you nothing but the very best of luck.
Good luck.
(I have split it into parts because it is difficult to post a full-on paragraph post on a platform like Blogspot therefore I am going to split into parts therefore if you are reading this post on my Blogspot then I would say "If you have read all of the parts on this long and rant(y) post on the life update I have decided to share it with you on my Blogspot in all three parts then congratulations for reading all three parts of my very own life update post on my very own Blogspot/ Blogger to be honest! I wish you the very best of luck to you and your loved ones in your very own life in general and of course; good luck.)
