Author's Notes: Don't truthfully ask me any questions about this particular writing project of mine ever since you do truthfully realized how I do needed to write something out and guess what? This writing project does truthfully came up out of nowhere thus you may not know what is going to happen to you in very own real life realistically out of nowhere; everyone.
Also, I do truthfully apologize if this isn't an expected Logan Sargeant x fem! reader fan fiction type of writing project where I would have made it as a Logan Sargeant and a female reader type of fan fiction to be honest thus honestly: I know so many of you all or rather the ones whom they had been truthfully interested in many of my fictional writing projects to be honest especially with Logan Sargeant involved in the fan fiction projects I did it on here or otherwise it might be people whom they only read it mostly because I am one of those people whom I did actually wrote the "Logan Sargeant x reader" projects except unlike the others especially on Tumblr itself; it seems to be so popular amongst young adult readers especially with all of the SMAUs as well as the fluff fan fictions as well as the angst fan fictions plus also both the smut and the dark fan fictions in which I won't be ever doing either a smut fan fiction nor a dark fan fiction in general because firstly, as a person and a human being whom they had truthfully went through abuse from her very own personal life from her very own estranged birth family from her very own real life: I do truthfully hated dark fan fictions and I am also going to possibly be one of those people whom they'll never truthfully understood about why on earth people would definitely do anything to write such a dark fan fiction and not realizing how abuse isn't something to be glamorized; romanticized or to be normalized in general thus honestly; it makes me so angry, confused; upset and potentially feeling hurt about why on earth people would definitely think it is truthfully okay to write dark fan fictions in general yet to also think it is truly okay to truthfully romanticized; glamorized and to also be normalized altogether thus it makes me wanted to give everyone a long lecture about how abuse isn't truthfully okay in general and it shouldn't be normalized; glamorized and to also be romanticized altogether in general as honestly; do they not truthfully realized how abuse isn't truthfully a okay in general? No matter what type of form are we referring to it; abuse shouldn't be truthfully be tolerated in general no matter what type of abuse are we truthfully referring to it and yet to also experience it too as well from their very own lives as well; everyone.
Plus secondly, if anyone or anybody in general does truthfully read my personal blog posts on either my personal blog here via Blogspot or otherwise it might be the Tumblr blog posts on my Tumblr blogs then please consider foregoing the expectations in general especially when we are talking about this particular topic; the smut fan fiction in which I do truthfully hated it in general too as well apart from the dark fan fictions too in general thus apart from the dark fan fictions where I won't be doing it on my personal blogs on either both of my Tumblr blogs or even on my personal blog here via Blogspot in general as again, as a person whom they did experienced real life abuse in her very own life as well as the trauma too plus the estranged relationships between her and her very own estranged birth family too from her very own real life as what I had mentioned it on here: I usually am against abuse in general no matter what type of abuse are we actually referring to it; apart from dark fan fictions where I won't be doing it permanently in general; another type of fan fictions where I also won't be doing again apart from the dark fan fictions are actually the smut fan fictions where as an actual asexual or perhaps an actual aroace adult plus as a true Christian woman whom she does truthfully believed in God himself; I won't be also doing smut fan fictions too as well permanently on either of my personal blogs as yes, I am very much of an anti smut person as well as an actual asexual [Perhaps an aroace] adult in real life; I also won't be truthfully doing smut and dark fan fictions on anyone or anybody in general no matter who did asked me to truthfully write a dark or a smut fan fiction online and also no matter whom exactly are we referring to them thus no, I am not going to do any smut fan fictions as well as dark fan fictions in general on either of my Tumblr blogs in addition to my personal blog via Blogspot here everyone.
Also speaking of fan fictions I won't be doing as well; thirdly: I also won't be doing the whole A/B/O fan fiction thus I don't know what is it all about it so I am genuinely so sorry about that and don't even truthfully try to call me out for how I won't be bothering doing a A/B/O fan fiction on any of my personal blogs no matter which type of personal blogs are we actually referring to it.
Plus this same applies with the tropes too as well; enemies to lovers, age gaps; sibling reader and so on and so forth as you do truthfully realized I am an actual adult woman whom realistically and biologically age wise she is a 30 year old woman whom she is still living with her very own estranged birth family in real life not because she doesn't want to leave them for good as the obvious reason but more so, she had nowhere to go and there are very few options for a sheltered woman whom she had actually dropped out of school after she had completed her education at school altogether after she had completed her schooling altogether in her very own life due to the pressure of both the school as well as the personal peer pressure too as well where she had to experienced it from both home and at school from both the adults and the kids whom they are around the same age as her biologically age wise; she did have to experience so much pressure not only from her very own estranged birth family but also from the other kids at school whom they are at the same age as her biologically age wise in addition to also the school teachers whom they did wanted her to be the type of student where she can be at the top of her class rankings in addition to also how she can handle the pressure as well while performing well at school at the same time especially in the merciless school environment where after I did managed to read Callum Nicholas's book of "Life in the pit lane" in which from a few days ago: I did managed to pick up the physical copy from the Kinokuniya Bookstore where I did went to the KLCC Outlet where surprisingly I had found out that they are still under renovation but they are luckily still open just so I can truthfully get the books I really wanted from there as well as spending a day at a bookstore after experiencing the stressful days from my current job where yes, I am still currently working at a multiple job position of receptionist [Medical receptionist nurse just in case if you are truthfully wondering]; assistant manager: nurse, part time cleaner and a guard for the reception office at their Traditional Chinese Medicine Clinic as my one and only full-time job I am currently working at the estranged family's Traditional Chinese Medicine in order to not only stay employed by having a job where at certain times I did felt as when it is an actual saving grace from God himself all in the 'truly' good name of Jesus himself but also at the same time; I did felt as when he [Jesus and God himself] Did wanted me to also truthfully to stay out of trouble in my very own life just so I can make sure I can be prepared for the next chapters of my very own life; everyone and honestly, I am actually typing this out from my own personal experience from my very own life realistically and not from a 'realistically' satirical type of way; everyone.
Plus back to what I had typed about the whole personal experience of both experiencing the peer pressure from both my own family and also from my very own personal experience from school in addition to also what are my own personal experience of reading the "Life in the pit lane" by Callum Nicholas whom he is one of the mechanics of the Red Bull Racing Team as the author of the "Life in the pit lane" book; he did mentioned about how he did truthfully struggled at school however he did truthfully managed to stay focused at his school work in order to not only please his own parents as well as staying focused on his school for the sake of his own parents in addition to also how he had managed to truthfully became a mechanic in his very own life just before we know him as a mechanic whom he is part of the Red Bull Racing Team: I did truthfully relate to him based on how he did struggled at school at times except unlike Callum whom he is really lucky to stay focused on his own school work mostly because not only his parents wanted him to truthfully be prepared for the next chapters of his very own life in addition to how they wanted him to do well at school while giving him the genuinely unconditional amount of love and support to him on one hand personally wise while I, on the other hand: I too also struggled at school except unlike him [Callum that is as we are truthfully referring to him]; I did actually understood about his own personal struggles at school; I did also struggled at school too personally wise just as what I had mentioned it earlier on one hand however unfortunately, if there is one thing that makes it different from my own personal point of view; I didn't do well at school at all unfortunately as I did actually ended up dropping out of school after I had finished my time at school altogether in addition to how I also had experienced a really stagnant; conditional and also a painful type of support from my own birth parents and dejectedly, it does truthfully makes me feeling truthfully so sad to possibly even think about it now just as when I looked back at it as well as reflecting on it too as well from my very own life personally typing wise; I do truthfully think this is something I don't truthfully wish that type of treatment from anyone or anybody in general including my own worst enemies especially when we are truthfully talking about the more limited amount of love and support from other people especially when they are from your very own family and from your very own birth parents where they are supposed to be emotionally present in addition to also be the ones whom they can undeniably give both you and your siblings on the unconditional amount of the genuine love and support in your very own life however if they are the ones whom they had been emotionally absent from your very own life as well as giving you a stagnant amount of love and support in a more conditional type of way where they'll only do it if you actually did well at school and performed well at school then this is where I don't truthfully wish that type of wish upon on anyone or anybody in general including my own worst enemies no matter whom exactly I am actually referring to them from my very own life and also, this is also a general wish I don't truthfully wish that type of personal experience on everyone and everybody in their very own respective lives including my own worst enemies too as well in general no matter whom we are actually referring to them in general thus honestly, I do truthfully think everyone does truthfully deserved the actual and the equal amount of the unconditional love and support unless if they did such questionable actions time and time again as well as such inexcusable actions such as the current and evil USA President whom I did have so much hate towards the nasty and evil current USA president thus honestly, I do think we should had gotten Kamala Harris as a USA president in my own opinion or otherwise it can be someone else whom they can be in the same tier as Barack Obama and Joe Biden whom those two men [Barack and Joe themselves] are the unproblematic presidents of the USA in my own opinion if we are referring to the past USA presidents.
Also, finally: before we go into the disclaimers information; I do truthfully wanted to possibly let you all know that i did wrote this out unexpectedly out of nowhere ever since I did have an unexpected menstrual period when I was truthfully typing this writing project out on my personal from a Friday morning where I did had a tense morning ride all the way from home to work between me and my own estranged birth family as I did actually get frustrated by my own estranged birth mother from the entire morning ride of Friday morning in which it did realistically happened from yesterday morning and by the time when we did arrived to their Traditional Chinese Medicine Clinic where again, I am working at there as their receptionist nurse, assistant manager: nurse: part time cleaner and also a guard for their reception office as my one and only full-time job just as what I had mentioned it earlier in one of my earlier paragraphs in this particular blog post where I am now typing this out therefore make sure you can possibly have a physical notebook or a piece of paper where you can keep it with you at all times until when you can definitely get a physical notebook where you can possibly use it as a notebook where you can write the interests where you would normally just wrote in there just for fun as well as keeping it too as well for the physical copy version of the writing projects where you do truthfully wanted to write it out in an old school and physical way of a paper and pen just so you won't lose the writing ideas in addition to also keeping a physical copy version of a writing project where if you didn't liked the writing project or if you do truthfully liked it but you didn't want to publish it online then you can always feel free to definitely keep it for yourself either as a private writing project or otherwise maybe you did a writing project where originally you did at first enjoyed it or liked it at first however after a while; then perhaps you didn't ended up liking it and suddenly you did ended up scrapping it altogether and let it stay in that particular physical notebook where you did wrote any of the scrapped writing projects where at first you did truthfully liked it but after a while; you didn't like it before scrapping it altogether on the entire writing project in addition to the other writing projects where you either are working on it in addition to also how you did also wrote it down in a physical way of a paper and pen therefore you don't truthfully lose the writing idea you did truthfully have from your own mind in addition to also how you are also working on it on the side too as a recreational writing project you did it on your terms too; everyone.
Also, I know this does truthfully sounds like a Kina Walker and a Logan Sargeant writing project as a Logan Sargeant Fan Fiction Writing Project thus Kina Walker is a female OC or original character whom I am truthfully inspired by Liatu King whom she is one of my favorite women's basketball player apart from Olivia Miles, Dara Mabrey: Allisha Gray and so on and so forth in general.
Plus also, don't worry: I know both Liatu [In real life realistically] and Kina [In many of my own fictional writing project wise as my one of my own female OC to be honest] does realistically have a genuinely healthy; stable, steady and also a secure plus loving relationship fulfilled with the truthful amount of the endless love and support from their own respective ohanas between both of the wahines and their own respective families in their own respective lives both literally and figuratively just in case if you all are truthfully wondering about the concern about whether do they have an estranged relationship or not.
Realistically; the true answer is . . . *Drum roll please* No, they actually don't have an estranged relationship between both of the wahines and their own respective families.
Also, no 'true' offense to everyone in general especially to Liatu king herself as well as her own ohana plus also to everyone else too as well including anyone or anybody whom they did have an estranged relationship with their own respective families and also the ones whom they don't truthfully have an estranged relationship with their own families in general--mark my words; everyone. [Again, no 'true' offense to both Liatu King and her own ohana as well as everyone whom they are truthfully reading this blog post on my personal blog via Blogspot as well as all of my other posts on here and all of my own blog posts on Tumblr plus my own posts on BlueSky/ Bl**Sky too as well, everyone.]
Plus the only one female OC whom she had an estranged relationship with her own family especially her own legal birth mother from her own life and her own family to be honest; it is Paula Leah Thompson whom she is one of my female OCs whom i spoke about her for a very long time and yes, she is inspired by Allisha Gray with a very different hairstyle.
Anyway, let's get into it; everyone!
Disclaimers: All of the events mentioned below are entirely fictional therefore there is no need to take it seriously as if it does truthfully happens in real life as a real life event realistically.
Again, all of the events where it is mentioned are entirely fictional therefore there is no need to truthfully take it seriously as it does happens in real life.
Also, don't use any AI software to do any editing work or any touch ups on any of my blog posts on any of my personal blogs no matter which one of my personal blogs are we referring to it and don't publish it on other platforms especially on AO3; everyone. [Sorry! Especially if you are an actual AO3 fan fiction author of your very own original fan fictions where you had published it online.]
"I'm not speaking to them; Logan."
"Why not?"
"Well, firstly; if you truthfully don't know then you do truthfully know that they had been both abusive and dismissive towards me and yet also; despite how they had kept on saying on the whole 'Ohana means family, family means no one gets left behind or be forgotten' from the Lilo and Stitch movie where we used to watch it as a family tradition altogether however I do hated the way they had said out of vain ever since they had left me to the wolves and you don't truthfully understand about my own life despite how we both had been together; Logan."
"Oh."
"And secondly, if you want to think I am practically joking then don't even think about it; Logs ever since we both had been together for a while: I was so hesitant to definitely invite them to the wedding where if we both have an actual plan to permanently get married and to stay together in both of our very own lives and for our very own entire lives too as well respectively then this is where we do have made loads of consideration and also loads of conversations as well as communications between the both of us based on the guests' list on who do we wanted to actually invite them to the wedding: Logan.
"And I know this is our wedding and all however I do truthfully think that if you and I--if we both truthfully wanted to definitely the people we wanted to be at our wedding then this is where we both have to talk to each other based on who we are feeling the most comfortable being present at our own wedding without any actual pressure to definitely put an invisible weight of pressure for them to be invited to our wedding; Logan." Replied while they crossed their arms across their chest; feeling truthfully concerned about how the wedding between the both of them are going to truthfully turn out especially with the uncomfortable and the tense thoughts of how there are certain people whom they would rather go to your wedding without both your consent and to also make the both of you feeling truthfully uncomfortable by spoiling the wedding day where it is supposed to be the best day ever for the both of you but instead; you did ended up imagining all of the chaos would immediately be revealed altogether not only to break your heart even more to trillions of pieces where they are the remains of your already demolished [And broken] heart where it had been broken so many different times all due to both the trauma as well as the jealousy in addition to also the stain between you and the people whom dejectedly you hadn't expected the relationship between you and them had gotten so sour and bitter to the point where it had left you with nothing but a heavily demolished heart and also a shattered self-esteem where it had became a shell of your former self to the point where you had to became more cautious of whom you are trusting now in addition to also how you had made a decision where although you may have to let go of the people whom they had brought you nothing but a toxic and an estranged relationship between you and them unexpectedly in your very own life; except you also did realized about how you had too also slowly but surely; you had eventually turned to God not only for help but also for the unconditional amount of the forgiveness; acknowledgement; validation; protection, blessings and support and love all at the same time from God himself as little by little before and after your morning surf session; you did always head off to a church where you had made your prayers to him in addition to also after you had completed your job working at your full-time job at the same time too as well.
At first, Logan seems to be feeling truthfully confused about what exactly you are doing nevertheless after he had found out about how you had always made your prayers to God everywhere you go discreetly as well as how you had spoke to him about how you did wanted to truthfully turn your life around by making the changes where at first you are either feeling hesitant or enraged due to how you are normally resistant to change in general however with all of the unconditional amount of distress, stress; pain and trauma you did have to truthfully experienced it in your very own life for a really long time; you had became so drained in your very own life to the point where you did had to made a stop at the Makai Pier on a Saturday afternoon and after you managed to walked to there as safely as possible while crossing to the makai side of the island; you did take a seat on the grainy; rough but soft ivory sandy grounds plus you did started to instantly cry out of nowhere where you did felt as when you are releasing all of the painful feelings and also the internal pain where you had holding onto it for so long to the point where you had to told everyone you are feeling truthfully okay and fine in general yet to also let them know you can truthfully handle your own problems altogether but instead; it ended becoming so obvious to the point where you couldn't hold it inside you no more and you started crying out of nowhere instantly to not only release the internal pain you had been holding onto it for so long but also you had too also resisted it as well as suppressing it too as well altogether to the point where you did truthfully felt as when you are releasing the pain you had tried to suppress it; resist it and even fighting back against it too as well as holding onto it too as well to the point where you didn't realized how it does actually hurts you more by holding onto it more so than by releasing it both internally and externally too as well.
Plus by the time when you had returned back to your apartment while it had suddenly became dark out of nowhere while you managed to drove back safely to Waikiki; you started crying again out of nowhere shortly after you had returned back there and while doing it so without a word: you kneel down on both of your knees in front of him at your own living room of your own permanently freehold apartment where you had signed all of the actual papers as the full-time owner of the permanently freehold apartment for a lifetime but also you had paid it with your own money too as well; he did gave you a hug unexpectedly without even asking you a permission to actually hug you however you didn't undeniably care about whether is it truthfully okay for him to truthfully hug you or not except all he knows is that you are instantly crying out from your heart to release all of the internal pain where it had been suppressed; placed on the sidelines and also it has been resisted and ignored all at the same time too as well from your very own entire life.
Subsequently; on a Sunday morning: the both of you went to a Church for their Sunday services just both before and after the morning surf sessions where the both of you had shared it together too as well.
Plus surprisingly; despite how the both of you had been on and off with each other as you both had returned back to each other for a period of time and also getting separated too as well for a period of time too as well: both your friends and Logan's friends are expecting either the both of you should split up with each other between the both of you for good and search for someone else whom they can be the life partners of both of your very own entire lives however you both had decided to remain friends for a certain period of time before the both of you can take the actual plunge of faith where you both had decided to said the countless prayers to God to make sure that the both of you can definitely have a relationship where it can either worked for the both of you or perhaps for you and someone else whom they can be your own life partner and vice versa for Logan too as well in his case thus you didn't know maybe either perhaps either he had found another wahine whom they can be his life partner for a lifetime between him and her or otherwise he can take an unconventional path where he can freely be a queer man altogether in his very own life while considering having a romantic relationship between him and another man altogether where the both of them can have the same type of relationship where it had existed between the both of you and if it does then this is where you had added: "I do wanted to wish both Logan and his life partner as well no matter whom he is meeting; what is his queer status in addition to also how the both of them are doing both individually and also in the relationship between the both of them; God.
"Please keep them safe and I do wish the both of them and everyone else well in general and please wish them luck too as well, God, All in the name of God; amen."
Then you placed your right index and thumb finger on your forehead as the first step followed by the chest as well as the left shoulder and the right shoulder before ending it with a prayer hand as well as blowing out your favorite turquoise water candle where you had gotten it from Bath and Body Works as one of your favorite candle scents and unexpectedly; they had decided to add it to their permanent candle collection where customers can get it at anytime of the season as one of their favorite scents from Bath and Body Works altogether.
While you focused on your very own independent life where you had always thanked God every day for how he had managed to grant you for an independent life where you had longed for it for so long in your very own life just before Logan came into the picture: he too also focused on his very own life just before the both of you had decided to reunite with each other after stepping away from the relationship between the both of you for about a couple of years and a couple of years later; the both of you had managed to reunite with each other while staying in touch with each other as well as treating each other in the way the both of you wanted to be treated with each other with the indefinite amount of genuine and an equal amount of respect, love; support: validation and acknowledgments as well as protection and kindness too as well as empathy and compassion too as well.
Although many were surprised the both of you had reunited with each other then this is where you did actually get weary and concerned about how the people are going to take the news especially the estranged family members whom they had found out from the non estranged family members whom you did felt truthfully thankful about how there are certain family members and relatives whom all of the non estranged parties between you and them had managed to spoke with each other about how you had managed to reunite with Logan and vice versa on how he had reunited with you too as well; the actual question is "How are they going to truthfully react to the news altogether from the both of you?"
While some hadn't given much thoughts all about it and yet they had minded their own business as well as re-building their own lives in their own entire lives altogether; meanwhile some had reacted with nothing but both scorn and jealousy about how the both of you had managed to reunited with each other despite how you both had personal differences aside as well as how you both had fought with each other at certain times too plus going in separate ways too as well between the both of you just before the 'unexpected' reunion between the both of you; they had nothing but scorn; jealousy as well as shock and also irritation on how you had ended up choosing someone whom he defies all of the odds from his short-lived F1 career as well as the family history between both his dad and his permanently estranged uncle from his past back when he was a naive, inexperienced and an impressionable keiki whom he was at a really young, naive and also an impressionable age during his childhood days where he was focused on school, fishing; go-karting, surfing and even having to enjoy his care-free days without even worrying about something except for getting good grades at school as well as performing well at school and the peer pressure he had to truthfully face from his peers and also the bullying too as well from the other school students as well.
