Trigger warning: Mentions of abuse, bullying: *racism; **misogyny ***actions where it is highly kapu for you to do it so both in real life and online as well and depression as well as cuss words you shouldn't ever truthfully use it publicly and also in front of certain people you shouldn't say those words out loud in addition to the mentions of politics.
[***For example: skipping classes from school; university and college plus skipping school altogether as well as dropping out of school altogether as well reading other people's diary; breaking into someone's computer; anything abusive in general and so on and so forth in general.]
Hawaiian words pronunciations and meaning:
Kapu- Forbidden in Hawaiian language [Pronounced as 'Ka-poo']
Keiki- Children in Hawaiian language [Pronounced as 'Kay-kee /key']
Ohana- Family in Hawaiian language [Pronounced as 'O-ha-nah']
Wahine- Woman in Hawaiian language [Pronounced as 'Wa-hee-nay']
Mahalo nui loa- Thank you very much in Hawaiian language [Pronounced as 'Ma-ha-low *nu-lee lo-ah' {*Pronounced as new} ]
*Author's note: For those of you who are wondering am I either against racism or the opposite; for your 'true' information from me to you: I am very highly anti-racism in general.
**And I am truly not a misogynist either as well. (Plus f*ck both racism and misogyny in general for real.)
Plus if anyone of you who are truthfully reading this plus wondering about 'Do you think she does have a 'true' vendetta and a deep grudge against digital creators or influencers?' as a thought; I would truthfully agree to disagree as the 'true'/ 'actual' answer is "No, I don't have an actual vendetta or an actual grudge against digital creators and influencers alike' as usually I am very neutral about them however if there are the ones who did such questionable actions or actions where I truthfully don't truthfully tolerate then this is where I do have an actual grudge against them as usually the influencers and digital creators I usually check out and followed them closely online are mostly online artists whom I only followed them online as well as some of the digital creators whom usually they focused on the best and genuine interests I would usually followed it by heart and vice versa thus please don't truthfully attack me online and in person for not only assuming that I do have an actual vendetta or a grudge against any influencers or digital creators in general.
Thus as always, always be unconditionally respectful and kind whenever you are interacting with any of my social media accounts; my blogs [It could be both my T*mblr blogs and also my personal blog on here] or all of the accounts where I am currently active at there; please be truthfully and equally yet endlessly be both respectful and be kind in a genuine and an endless type of way as both respect and kindness are both critical and priceless yet magical too as well.
Also, on a different yet an equally serious plus an irrelevant note: I truthfully apologize to all of the L*nd* and C*rl*s fans plus the C*rl*nd* fans since I am not the biggest fan of the both of them individually and as a duo as well plus seeing C*rl*s in the WRT does makes me wanting to puke apart from seeing VB77 during his time with the Alfa Romeo/ Kick Sauber team; the duo of K-Mag and Nico Hulkenberg (Ugh.) during their time at the Haas F1 Team before Oliver 'Ollie' and Estie Bestie had arrived into the picture as a current duo of the Haas F1 Team as a palette cleanser along with Ayao taking over the team principal position at the Haas F1 Racing Team [In my very own opinion that is] And also the 'Drive to survive' show which I have no complete interest in.
[Also, no 'true' offense to anyone or anybody whom they do love and enjoyed the 'Drive to survive' series; thus if you do truthfully enjoyed it then good for you but if you sincerely don't but if you did watched it or perhaps you had heard the show from fans online then I am so sorry to truthfully heard you didn't truthfully enjoyed the 'DTS' series.]
Plus if you are feeling sincerely triggered or uncomfortable or both on reading this particular blog post then please don't click on this particular post online since you may consider to be truthfully be responsible for what you consuming online and also for your own actions as well as again: I am going to truthfully and equally give you a clear and serious yet a truthful message of warning as well: please don't interact do not interact with particular post if you are feeling sincerely uncomfortable reading the dark elements I had mentioned it on this particular post online and be careful of what you are consuming online as well as I did placed a clear, serious and a truthful warning where I had mentioned about how you shouldn't be interacting with this particular post if you are feeling sincerely both triggered and uncomfortable by what are you are consuming online on both here and on many other online platforms as well.
Plus this is the original version of the writing as it is originally written from 'I' and 'me' as the first person point of view but it will be change to third person point of view later on as the edited version hence the reason why I did called it as a 'long snippet' of my next writing project as what you had read below.
Anyway; also consider this as a draft version of the writing too as well in my own opinion.
Disclaimer: This is only a work of an original fiction where did all of the hard work as well as all of the writing; editing and the publishing all by myself as well plus please don't truthfully take this original work of fiction I had worked on very seriously with all of my own hard work very seriously as if this does truthfully happens in real life obviously.
My Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/melwrites01.bsky.social
My main T*mblr: https://aggold15hi01.tumblr.com/
My back-up and ask T*mblr: https://backupmelwrites.tumblr.com/
Chapter 1 of the same unnamed female OC I've made an aesthetic board/ concept board of her: https://realpaulaleah4everwrites05.blogspot.com/2025/03/picture-board-for-my-unnamed-oc-chapter.html
"I'm done." I roared across the living room out of anger while I am packing my bags to heading back to Honolulu and very soon the movers are going to be here very soon while the apartment does feels vacant and empty at the same time as little I do know; he is out at 'work' but more so of hanging around at an underground nightclub where they also hang out secretly during the day and it is very hard to definitely search for the location as normally you either need the magic word just as the same as with a magic password you have to do as secretly they normally open the secret nightclubs only as a way to be an alternative source of searching for an income in the comparison to either doing drug trafficking or even doing any illegal activities to search for ways to make an income out of it.
"I'm done with you especially for how you had treated me throughout our relationship between you and me plus seriously you just put the blame on me when I did called you out for all of your behaviors based on what you did towards me?! I am feeling truthfully livid towards you especially the way you had treated me throughout our whole relationship!" I protested in anger while angry tears started pour out of my pair of eyes instantly out of nowhere.
Sobbing and wiping away my angry tears just as when I am now packing up my belongings in an apartment where we are living at the area of Makaha; where it is located at the North Western part of Oahu as it is truthfully ruled by the local people of Hawaii where they not only protect the land and the environment very fiercely from the foreigners especially the developers whom they did have plans on converting Makaha into another urbanized area where it does feels truthfully similar to Honolulu and Waikiki however because of the history of how Hawaii had been annexed by the USA and yet they had made it into the 50th state of USA; this is where the local people of Hawaii where they did lived in the area of Makaha as well as the island of Ni'ihau where it is a neighboring island of Kaua'i however it is very isolated from the rest of the islands as [I'd think] when I did ask the wahines at HPU about the Ni'ihau island; they told me that the island was ruled by the native people of Hawaii plus the only way people can discover the island of Ni'ihau is by going to a helicopter tour where it does avoid the inhabited area plus they also had told me most of them whom they do are ohanas with keikis must opt for either settling at the island of Kaua'i or Oahu if they wish to let their growing keikis to continue their education as normally the local and the native citizens of the islands of Hawaii especially those whom they are living at the island of Ni'ihau can do either fishing; farming or even collecting small shells where they can made a lei out of a small shell called "pupu" where they have made the lei out of it while it could sell for about thousands of bucks.
They also had told me about the capital of the island Pu'uwai which is translated to the word 'heart' is a housing area fulfilled with with nothing but dirt roads; bungalows and colorful gardens where it is fulfilled with beautiful flowers plus although the annual rainfall can only be measured to 300mm; they can only support a minimal amount of agriculture.
Also, when I did my research on Wikipedia on Ni'ihau: I learned that the Hawaiian language are still the official language as anyone who are haling from the island of Ni'ihau wanted to learn other main language especially the native Hawaiian language where it is still of the official language of the Ni'ihau; the only option for both a keiki and an ohana are to either move to the island of Kaua'i or the island of Oahu for more opportunities not only to learn other language but also at the same time they may search for more opportunities at either the island of Kaua'i or Oahu ever since both of the islands does have opportunities along with the Big Island of Hawaii and Maui but mostly it is Kaua'i and Oahu are the islands where normally the people from Ni'ihau would search for more opportunities over there.
And speaking of opportunities: I do feel sincerely dejected not only for skipping out my classes but also at the same time for having to truthfully suffered from the consequences where I should had not posted it online about the news on how I am going to HPU for both grad school and obtaining my marine biology plus looking back now; I knew I had opened the floodgates of enabling both the dominant power of control of abuse where not only my current and estranged ex-boyfriend had abused me physically; emotionally and mentally as well ever since my mental health had been depleted from how I had been abused by both him and also his dominantly abusive power which he used to take the full level of control from me and my life as well as having to manipulate me into doing such actions where I didn't realize there are consequences for those type of actions I had done not only to truthfully please him but not also make him feeling sincerely happy as well however I am still feeling truthfully angry; hurt and sad about he had not only had told me to do such actions where I not only got in trouble at my graduation school where they had send both me and my god-mother an email of a warning of either I do needed to classes very seriously or otherwise I would have to be suspended not only for skipping classes but I have to enter the transfer portal again.
Plus looking back at those actions I did it back then when i was still with him; i knew; I knew I have to take immediate actions because if I didn't then I would have been suspended or worse; I would have been expelled too as well.And I really don't want to sincerely made the same mistake of what I did towards both HPU as well as my best friends and also my ohana too as well because if I did; i knew I would have messed it up or if I can pretty much drop a curse word; I would have said the 'F-word' but I don't.
I knew my dad would told me to watch my mouth and my language as well as my god-mother plus my birth mum would have given me a look that says 'Watch it, young lady. You aren't going to drop that word when you are either at a place like a church or otherwise when we are around in the background; young lady." After all; all three of my parents would let me watch only certain things on TV especially Disney movies; Disney shows and Disney Channel shows as well as watching sports as well with both my family as well as my relatives too as well.
Apart from that; they also had taught me reading; writing; speaking and learning how to communicate with my birth mum in sign language as surprisingly; my dad had told me he didn't realize she was deaf until when they have an interaction between each other on how she wanted to borrow his notebook and pen and when turned to a brand new blank page where she wrote in her hand-writing which would said the word:
"I'm deaf. I'm voiceless."
I also did recalled properly about how he was feeling sincerely surprised about how she is deaf; he finally understood why she uses sign language to communicate with him and other people around them as well; luckily he had decided to become her sound board just for her whenever the both of them are meeting other people and although the both of them are separated however he would always told everyone including me and my god-mother that he would appreciate how God had blessed him with not only beautiful wife where the both of them have two beautiful daughters whom they look like a mix of them alike but also at the same time; he would always be there whenever she needs him the most and vice versa whenever he needs her the most.
Plus I even can properly recall about how he wanted me to be as hard-working as the both of them as he told me that my mum would always be there for us although she had to work at two jobs to keep herself afloat as well as having a safety net of the endless and steady stability both financially wise and also in life as well.
Also, I wanted to send my gratitude towards both my ohana and my best friends too for how they would always be there for me whenever I am at my lowest point and vice versa whenever they do need my support the most.
Without them or God, I wouldn't be here today. Just no, not at all unfortunately.
After all; God, my ohana and my best friends are the people whom they are reasons on why I am currently here today to be honest.
Also, I have to write him either a long; sincere and an equally heart-felt hand written letter towards him or even sending him an email but with the same feeling of how I do owe him an actual apology for not only ignoring his warnings on how he had told me about how I shouldn't be in a relationship where it does feels sincerely toxic; poisoning: hurtful and harmful towards both my own life and my own soul but also at the same time: I shouldn't have put my relationship first before anything else in my very own life especially if the relationship between me and the other person are extremely toxic and poisoning.
I too owe my god-mother and everyone else in their life too an actual heart-felt and an equal sincere apology towards them as well.
Hopefully I can also do the same by writing a long-hand written letter towards them as well
Plus speaking of hand-written letters; I also had left the same one for my current and estranged ex-boyfriend that I do truthfully wish him well but I don't truthfully wish him any ill-fated wishes on him despite how he had tried to manipulate me every now and then to the actual breaking point where it does feels sincerely toxic to the point where not only he isolate me away from both my ohana and my friends but also at the same time he doesn't want me to pursue my own dreams as well on becoming a marine biologist but instead; he would prefer me to become his 'Wife' where I told him 'We aren't even married' however he always does got sincerely angry about how I did brought up the comment where I had mentioned about how we weren't even married at all however he felt angered whenever I did brought up this particular comment towards him then I did remembered he did wanted to slap me across the face however when the neighbors had saw the disputed conversation between the both of us; he decided not to do it anyway thankfully because they too had told me they wanted me to truthfully leave him and said to me: "This isn't a type of relationship where God wanted to see you with a love partner or a soul mate but rather this where the demon wants to see you have a relationship with a person who is nothing but your wound mate and also having a relationship where it is build by trauma and not by love that is. Plus we don't truthfully think you do truthfully deserved all of that toxic energy in your very own life as we do truthfully know that toxic energy and toxic relationship aren't truthfully okay at all.
"Which is the reason why we do truthfully think you do deserved better in your very own life as they would treat you as an actual queen more so than someone who would do something kapu to you just as when they treat you nothing as either a prop where you weren't feeling both truthfully and endlessly acknowledged; validated: loved, supported; guided; secured and protected as well in your very own life as you do deserved to have a life where you do truthfully deserved in life where you live, you thrive and you shine; young lady and don't you ever forget that."
And this is where I did felt a pang of sadness where I do sincerely wish I knew I would have done better not only as an estranged ex-girlfriend; but also as a daughter; sister: aunt; and granddaughter too as well; after all, they did wanted to let me know that I needed to let go of my estranged ex-boyfriend but also at the same time they wanted me to definitely live a life where I do wanted to be in that type of position where I can not only live my life but I can also work on myself to let myself thrive and shine in my very own however I do feel sad when my estranged ex-boyfriend had taken that life away from me and yet he had put the blame on me for what he had done towards me just as when he gaslight his fans by having to let them know that I am the actual abuser whom I did so much harm towards him but instead I am the one who has been harmed by him but instead he puts the blame on me and said that I am the one who does all abuse towards him however it was me who has been harmed by him but he would always say something about how he got truthfully exhausted about me and my presence every now then whenever I turned my back on him.
And now, I had became so depleted from how he had been draining my energy to the point where I even question myself on do I have anymore urge to live my very own life as I do have to ask God and pray to God to let him answer my question:
"Am I a burden towards everyone?"
"And what did I do wrong?"
"Plus why am I the one who did something wrong toward everyone?"
"And why me? What did I truthfully do wrong in my very own life?"
Plus to add another thought I do have from my own head; here is an afterthought I do have it from my own mind while I am mentally and spiritually speaking to him [God] about what exactly I am currently experiencing in my very own life:
"Plus I really don't know if I could continue living my very own life in this way, God. I do truthfully needed your help from you; God." I thought dejectedly as an afterthought after experiencing a train of thoughts on a waves of unspoken questions I do have it towards and for God only as well.
Just as I continue packing up my bags and belongings; meanwhile I got the doorbell ring and I suddenly got numb and scared; having another scary thought washing all over me just as when someone had placed a bucket of icy cold water on the top of a door where when I did walked into the room then suddenly the same bucket with icy cold, freezing water had poured all over me and suddenly: I am feeling cold; freezing and wet all the same time after how someone had placed a full-on bucket of the same icy-cold; freezing waters where they had placed it on the top of the door which led towards the same room where I am now walking towards it and all of the sudden; I am feeling that numbingly cold and wet surface which had been poured all over my clothes, my face and my hair just to give me a shocking wake-up call I hadn't even expected it out of nowhere to be honest.
When the doorbell rings again; I immediately got up and said 'Coming!' while I ran towards the main door of the apartment and thankfully; it wasn't my estranged ex-boyfriend but it one of my neighbors who is standing next to a person whom I assume they are the movers from the moving company.
"Is everything okay?" They ask me while we have a bit of a staring contest between everyone; feeling perplexed and also equally feeling unsure about what to do next as the next move.
"Yeah, sorry; but do you have the boxes where I can move my things from . . . here?"
"Sure, no problem; but I could bring more up here but I am not exactly sure how many boxes do you want me to bring to you; Miss."
"I take two, you can leave the other three out here."
"Sure, would you like me to bring some more boxes to you up here? Especially when you have other things you want to bring it with you."
"Sure, no problem; sir."
"Coming right up, Miss."
While the man from the moving company gets more boxes from the moving truck; meanwhile the neighbor had decided to help me to get the bubble wrap and the newspaper to definitely wrap up the more breakable and fragile item which does need more care when you are handling it while you are going to move around from one room to the other room and then onto the next room and so on and so forth.
"I"m going to truthfully miss you so much, young wahine."
"You do?"
"Yes, I do: Ma'am--I mean I am going to truthfully miss you: Miss--plus it isn't going to truthfully be the same without Miss"
"I know, it isn't going to be the same without you; Miss."
"Really?"
"Mm-hm."
As we help each other to pack up all of my items and belongings; meanwhile the mover whom he arrived with more cardboard boxes had announced "Okay, I'm here; ladies!"
"You are here; Adrian?" She ask him while I continue to pack all of my belongings and items into the boxes just as when she decided to pick up a marine biology book to place it into a cardboard box.
"Yes, ma'am." He replied while he set up the cardboard boxes for us to pack up all of my items.
Over the next couple of hours; we continued on packing all of the boxes and also all of my belongings too as well ever since I am going to move out from there onwards and going back to Honolulu.
"Where are your girlfriends?" She ask me while I pick up a stack of novels I had picked up and taking the time to read it whenever I am not studying, surfing; swimming: scuba diving or heading out to somewhere.
Or sometimes when I'm on my period; i would do loads of reading through my free time that even my best friend and former UCSD Team mate plus room mate back at San Diego Merry would secretly give me a secret nickname 'A bookworm queen' hence the reason why I always love reading books on just about anything especially about anything with marine life and also the history as well as geography plus even some of the chemical names where it sounds strange when I was a kid; now it feels less strange and more surprising about those chemical names.
I also take notes down in many of classes back at school and also at UCSD hence the reason why I am at the top of the classes and also a top student and I also sometimes help the students whom they are struggling in classes and making the studies to be easier little by little.
Plus I do truthfully struggle with some of the school subject especially French where I do have to get help from a French-American classmate whom luckily they are truthfully kind enough to truthfully help me out with the French subject.
In addition to sending me the gratitude about how they thank me for lending them a helping hand: they also told me they are going to miss me too for helping them with the English subject too as well as Maths; Science and so on and so forth.
And I am feeling eternally thankful for God had blessed me to truthfully help them and thankful that he has blessed them too as well.
"Oh, they are busy thus I did wanted to invite them however I had decided to let them know that I wanted to do this all by myself just in case if my estranged ex-boyfriend is returning back to here."
"Oh okay, I see; better to play it safe rather not letting him know that you are inviting additional people."
"Oh okay, but why?"
"We all been here done that; we all did saw what had happened between you and him as you both have so much heated dispute and when the both of you have a heated dispute then all of the sudden we even saw how he had tried to slap you across the face; he had decided to stop altogether which is good because if this wasn't for us then all of the sudden he could . . . he could have slapped you out of nowhere."
The thought of how he would definitely slap me across the face when I did snapped back at him by letting him know that weren't married yet we both aren't husband and wife as a comment does truthfully angers me to the point where not only I wanted to truthfully slap him back out of anger and yet having to let him know he is a minion of the demon plus to add the insult into the wound: he ad also tried to punched me on the same night when I did managed to confess to the same neighbor after I managed to instantly escape from the same apartment where he not only was locked up in the same room where I did luckily got the door to his bedroom just so I can either do the investigation on what are the evidences from his diary, his computer and also sometimes his phone too as well about what are the evidence I can find out either online or offline about what he had written about our relationship between the both of us plus . . . the evidence is horrifying.
He not only wrote about he is praising lighter skinned girls but also at the same time; he does said such negative things about me and honestly: I truthfully hated how he wrote he had labelled me as 'the stereotypical angry woman' in many of his diary entries plus adding the insult into the wound; he too had mentioned how he is truthfully feeling tired of me and the relationship between the both of us to the actual point where he had labelled me as an 'angry and abusive black woman' in many of the diary entries he wrote in it and I truthfully hated it based on how he had treated me so badly to the point where he did gaslighted his fans by brainwashing them into such beliefs where they think I am a bad person; an evil person and even they think I am an actual abuser towards him by taking his side rather than calling him out for his questionable behaviors.
And I am feeling truthfully infuriated by how he had treated me just as when I am nothing but either a pice of prop or an actual piece of trash towards him plus it does truthfully angers me to this very day.
And he doesn't even truthfully care about giving me a sincere apology at all; all he cares about giving me both a 'true' and a back-handed apology where he does truthfully apologize to me but only out of force or out of obligation from others as well.
Plus I truthfully hated it so much to the point where I did felt as I have to take immediate actions after having to be blindsided for so long with how he kept on apologizing to me for the actions he had done towards me as well as having to truthfully treated me in an abusive type of way where he would not only emotionally abuse me but also he would physically abuse me from how he threw such items towards me especially when he did found out I did went to his room where not only I did luckily have the keys to unlock his room but also at the same time with an engineering degree I do have it under my belt; I managed to get into his computer and make a burner account on both a burner email account on Yahoo Mail plus an actual burner account on Twitch where I can watch all of his gaming streams on Twitch where I still don't sincerely understand why they would still allow him to get away with such a cult-like type of behavior where he had truthfully/ truly gaslight them about how his fans shouldn't be respecting other people especially when they are black women where I don't sincerely understand why he would spoke badly about me just as when I am the one who is being abused and victimized so heavily by how he had abused me so many different times in so many different events where he had abused not once; not twice but several times to the point where I had been hurt by him so many different times to the point where I finally got the chance to escape and take stern actions immediately as well as I did managed to contact my godmother about getting a lawyer and filing a restraining order against him as well ever since he has been abusing me one too many times but at the same time; he had also taken a full-level of control of my very own life at the same time yet he had left me feeling more and more depleted to the point where I did have a very hard time leaving both my room and yet at the same time I just didn't have the full-on level of motivation to truthfully do anything at all.
Not to mention he also had written such horrible things about both me and also the same horrible comments towards black people in general especially when it comes to black women as reading the negative comments where he not only harassed black women as either they are nothing but 'abusive' and 'angry' black women or otherwise he would said they are nothing but 'bitches who couldn't even do anything yet alone getting a normal mundane job' as well; it does truthfully enrages me to the point where now I did truthfully remembered how he and I--we both had a heated argument between each other and then after all; he even called me an 'Abusive bitch' to let everyone know that I am the abusive one when he is actually the abusive one where he did truthfully abuses me out of nowhere and honestly: truthfully hated how he had brain-washed people by letting everyone I am the 'true' abuser in the relationship between the both of us: however in reality; he is the actual abuser towards me in reasl life however he just gaslight his fans online to let them know not to either believe me or in anyone who is in a similar relationship between the both of us not truthfully believe in women and I am feeling truthfully angered by what he had done towards his own fans towards me.
Plus I also have to deactivate my accounts on social media as well since I got attacked and worn out by the cult-like type of energy based on how his fans from his fanbase had attacked me online indefinitely to the point where I do have to truthfully deactivate or permanently delete the social media account where I am usually online at there as usually I post both the good and the bad things which are usually happened in either real life or online plus I also shared my own thoughts online too as well especially when it comes to certain topics; however I did feel the waves of dejection as how there are so many of his fans who did truthfully attack me for having to truthfully abuse him as well as some of the political thoughts and beliefs especially when they had called me out a 'Pro-republican' b*tch when I am more of neutral wahine whom she is on the democratic side plus so does her family/ ohana too as well.
Apart from how I had been attacked online by his fans; dejectedly I not only have to delete and deactivate many of my active accounts on certain social media platforms where I usually am online there but also at the same time; many of my friends had spoke about how his fans are truthfully both malicious and horrible for having to fell into the false beliefs where they do believe the story of how I am an actual abuser towards him however in reality; it is me who is the actual victim and meanwhile he is the actual abuser to me despite how he is a guy who only met me online through a dating website where everyone had to hide their true personality with a screen name where they have to be create with a username based on how they need to create one out of their nicknames and interests where they can create it in order to truthfully hide their 'true identities' and their 'true' names which it does feels similar to platforms like Twitch, Discord and some of the more common social media platforms such as Twitter (A.k.a the now disgraced X): Bluesky which is a rival company to the now disgraced X; and IG but the dating website where a former acquaintance whom I did met from UC San Diego during my sophomore year, as we did met each other during a 'Welcoming' party where they welcome new students and transfer students alike plus welcoming back the returning students alike; she had not only met me through a 'A truth or dare' game where she had ask me an unexpected question on do I ever truthfully have an actual boyfriend but when I told her the truthful answer on "no, I don't have a boyfriend'; she had made me feeling sincerely uncomfortable about how she had told me how do i needed a boyfriend and honestly: I am feeling truthfully infuriated by how she had put the pressure on me to get an actual boyfriend of my own not only by skipping classes as well as countless basketball practices I need to truthfully attend; instead, she wanted me to go with her to the library not only to go to a dating site where it does reminds me of the Raya app mixed with Tinder which is another dating platform but it does have elements of the lesser known social media platform known as Discord as the guidelines on there does have a similar guidelines to Discord where you do have to truthfully follow all of the rules when you do have an account at there.
Plus this is where I did met my current and estranged ex-boyfriend whom I used to truthfully have a relationship with him both in real life and online for a very long time until now,
He not only treated me in a very different way back when we first met each other online as we are at the honeymoon phase but then when we first met each other; things had started taking a very different turn to the point where suddenly he had became more stand-offish towards my friends and family but became flirty with the other wahines and this is where I had became sincerely jealous of them especially when he did only met the lighter skinned girls whom they only did nothing but only either jobs where my ohana does truthfully felt questionable when it comes how they had decided to drop school altogether not only to become exotic dancers or even having to become influencers too as well.
Additionally it does truthfully saddens me to see how our relationship had not only became more soured by the abuse between the both of us but it also bitter as well ever since I did truthfully felt the relationship between me and him does became both bitter {And sour} between the both of us plus it also left me a foul taste in my very own mouth and my mental health too as well.
Plus by the time when we finished packing all of my belongings into countless different boxes and also the different baggages I brought it with me as well; my neighbor whom I had learned her name Leilani had asked me: "Are you feeling sincerely okay, sweetie? It's like we are going to truthfully miss you."
I nodded at her; holding one of the boxes where I did packed some of the more fragile items in there plus Adrian luckily had brought a 'Caution; Please handle it with care' tape and sticker where I did placed it on the same box where I am now holding it in my pair of hands.
"I am going to be truthfully okay, I am going to truthfully miss you but please do visit me in Honolulu whenever you can, Lani."
"Of course I will, my dear; and you will be the most amazing neighbor I have ever met you in my very own life; [name of the same unnamed female OC I am going to allegedly name her Kina as the official female OC]."
"Oh, Kina . . . I am going to truthfully miss you so much; sweetie.' She said just as when she is my actual aunt out of loyalty.
"I am going to truthfully miss you too; Leilani."
As we both hugged each other out after I passed the box to another mover; we continue on bringing down all of the boxes and the bags from the apartment to both the movers truck and also my rental car too as well.
'Thank you so much and mahalo nui loa for everything; Leilani."
"No thank you for coming to become my official neighbor too as well; my ohana and I; we are going to truthfully miss you as well, Kina."
"I know, same here: Leilani." I choked back a sob while I hugged her out as we both had a crying session together.
"Anyway, I'll see you in Honolulu; my dear."
"Same here."
Then after hours of packing the boxes and all of my belongings as well as bringing it to both the car and the truck; hugging out and having a crying session between each other then all of sudden; it is time for me to say goodbye.
Goodbyes are difficult but they are also bittersweet as well.
As I head off to Honolulu for the next chapter of my very own life from the area of Makaha where I used to live there with my estranged ex-boyfriend to the urbanized area of Honolulu, Oahu: Hawaii; I am going to set myself up for a brand new journey in my very own life.
Author's note: Also, sorry about the rushed ending at some of the parts however because I am feeling aggravated at work only because of a noisy patient [Baby that is] does make the editing process so difficult therefore I truthfully apologize for the rushed ending however I'll see you on the and good luck with your very own life in general.
Plus she'll also be officially named Kina as well as my third or forth female OC I had created on here.
