Author’s note: Nothing is changed except I am not completely happy with the title that I didn’t realize that I am using ‘local’ as in the confusion with a ‘home made dish’ and I am feeling truthfully so embarrassed about the title.
I am truthfully sorry about making this mistake and I’d think I need to be better with the title especially when it comes to doing Fan Fiction though.
Credits of images goes to Dallas Wings for the image on Allisha Gray and the University of Hawaii; UH Athletics Department plus UH Men's Volleyball Team for the amazing image of Chaz Galloway.
P.S Congrats to the University of Hawaii for winning this year’s Big West Championship and happy birthday to Felipe Massa who shared the same birthday date with my mum plus also wishing Happy b-day to both Dallas Wings Player Bella Alarie who is now currently deciding not to play this season due to personal reason and to Satou Sabally as well.
Anyway; I am really sorry for the poor selection of the title—I need to reconsider thinking about the title when I am writing a Fan Fiction.
Disclaimer: This is only a work of a fiction therefore there is no need to take it seriously as if this happens in real life. And none of the images are mine--I don't own either one of the images or both--none of the images are mine.
"Chaz, can I ask you something?" I ask while we are now in our kitchen at our apartment additionally I am preparing to cook one of the home made dish that I used to made with my dad and he had taught me when I was younger on cooking a grilled salmon with any choice of the side dish as I decided to cook up penne pasta with any choice of a pasta sauce we can use.
"Sure, what's going on? Is everything okay here; Paula?" He replied to me while I am preparing a pair of fresh Norwegian Salmon Fillet we got the other day at Target when we are going to Ala Moana Shopping Center.
"Everything is okay; Chaz except there is something I wanted to tell you."
At first when I mentioned that to him; he looks sincerely confused at first then his face starts shifting from feeling puzzled to a very serious look on his face as he is saying as a reply: "Okay, Paula--you said you want to talk to me about something; but what is it: Paula?"
I didn't say anything when he ask me this type of question. But when I didn't say anything; he start asking me this question in a very concerning manner just as when he gets truthfully worried about what had happened to his family or how his family is doing to be honest.
After all; one of the things I didn't know about is how Chaz is deeply yet truthfully very close with his very own family despite how in certain events; they have to go through dramas between each other.
"Paula, you did told me you want to talk to me about something but what is it, sweetie? I can't truly help you if you kept it to yourself to be honest; Paula." He said quietly yet his voice is so gentle that I felt as if he is giving me the comfort from all of the mental storms I am very much going through and yet; I am feeling like a surfer who is feeling both exhausted and starving yet he/she/ they are being stranded in the middle of the ocean without any type of help.
"Oh, sorry: I am still wondering if you still really love me for me truthfully as when you love me for the real me--the true me instead of just loving me because of my appearance; my interests or is it because you do feel as if I need a company from a person who did truthfully care about me for me; Chaz."
"Oh,"
"Yeah; I mean don't get me wrong; I love our relationship between each other but the question is 'Are we going way too fast in our relationship to be honest?'"
"Oh; what do you mean?"
"I mean like . . . firstly; the real question is "Do you really love me for the real me or do you only love me is it because I am from Hawaii; is it because I am looking beautiful to you and to your pair of eyes or is it more so on how do you think I need a company from a person who truthfully can become a close friend that anyone or anybody can have yet they need to make sure they maintain the strong; secure and healthy friendship between the both of us additionally it might apply the same in our relationship between the two of us. Secondly; the other question is 'Do you think are we going way too fast in our very own relationship as how so many couples does it before?' Plus thirdly; this question leads to another question: 'Are we going truthfully way too fast in our relationship or did our relationship os going in a proper speed?' Plus my main concern between us and for us is definitely are we going way too fast in our very relationship to be honest."
"Oh, okay." He replied while he helped me with the process of the preparation of the dishes.
Chaz's P.O.V
When Paula ask me about the experience of our relationship on are we going way too fast in our relationship together yet are we truly working on our part together in our relationship as both an individual and as a couple as well as acknowledging about the speed of our relationship on are we either going way too fast in our relationship or are we taking it truthfully, nice; slow; easy and steady in our relationship plus the other question she did mentioned it earlier is do I actually love her for the real Paula or do I love her because of the reasons she mentioned earlier about how she may came from three different places however she decided to call Hawaii as her very own home; is it because she looks very beautiful or is it more so of how I'd think she needs someone who can be both her best friend and her love partner at the same time yet I am still feeling truthfully confused; nervous and truthfully uneasy all at the same time.
"Paula," I called her name in a volume where we are discussing about something personal between the both of us while I am preparing the pans and pots for the cooking part while she is preparing the salmon fillet quietly as she had a pair of her sporty black frame glasses she usually wears sometimes as well as a pair of kitchen goggles on her to protect her eyes and a face shield on her face as carefully focusing on having to prepare the fresh salmon fillet as well as the other ingredients as well.
When I called her name, she stops preparing the salmon fillet and starts looking at me with an equally yet a truthful look of confusion on how she is wondering the same thing as well.
"What is it, Chaz?" she ask me while she washes her hand under the running water at the sink.
"Oh sorry, I am still wondering about how are we going in our very own relationship between the two of us ever since you told me the whole story about how our relationship goes to be honest and I am worried about that too as well. Plus are we going way too fast in our relationship? I felt as if your best friend Eliza did notice about how our relationship is going too fast as the whole relationship between the both of us--I don't know if she truthfully told you about this but it seems as if our relationship is either an example of going to surf at Haleiwa or definitely when you ride on a water slide at either the Aulani Water Slide at the Aulani Disney Resort or at the Wet and Wild Water Park here in the island of Oahu . . . plus I truthfully know she isn't one to get into people's business however I felt as if she did notice something that we didn't notice the actions we did back when our relationship during the earlier stage of our relationship; Paula."
"What do you mean: Chaz? Did you mean the relationship between the both of us is going way too fast?"
"I'd think so; Paula--just as what you have mentioned it earlier; Paula."
"What do you mean?"
"Didn't you remember the question on what you are asking me earlier?"
"Oh, sorry; my bad--Chaz: I felt as if I didn't realize about what we are exactly talking here; sorry: Chaz."
"Oh; it's okay: Paula--to be honest; I'd think it is truthfully normal to be puzzled with ourselves at times: Paula; after all, we are true human beings with true feelings; a true mind; a heart and a soul not robots without any of the three things that we humans have here to be honest."
"Oh--I am really sorry, my bad: Chaz." She replied while she is blushing as red as an elegant red hibiscus flower.
"Oh that's okay, can we already prepare the fresh grilled salmon and the pasta? We can answer those questions when we are finished prepared; Paula."
"Okay, sorry: I'd think w e are talking way too much all of the time." She replied; feeling truthfully guilty about how we are taking up too much of our time to simply do all of the talking on how our relationship is doing and the questions that she had asked me earlier.
"Oh, it's okay, Paula; I'd think there are times where we get feeling confused about something and yet; we just don't know what are we doing now though; to be honest."
"Sorry, Chaz."
"Oh please; don't apologize for taking all of the time to simply talking to me about something you want to get off chest however I do want to let you know that you are an amazing; wonderful; fantastic and one of the most beautiful girl I have ever met in my life both on the inside and out despite how at times you truly can get very moody easily additionally people may judge you all they want except I'd think the way they are judging you . . . is just crazy; Paula--just truthfully crazy."
While she is focusing on the cooking process; I added: "It is just crazy for anyone to judge a person; Paula--I have nothing else to say; Paula: I truthfully have nothing else to say here; Paula Leah."
"Oh wow, okay; thank you; Chaz--thanks for the reminder."
"Hey, no problem; I got you. "
Then I lower my voice and mutter under my breath while she goes back to preparing the salmon fillet; the pots and the pans as well as the heat stove for both grilling the salmon fillet; cooking the pasta and having to cook the sauce; I mutter before I seal my lips into a hard; thin and cold line which makes me want to treat people in the way they wanted to be treated: "Geez, people are judgmental these days and do they not know about her own and personal story? Wow, people are instantly . . . well . . . they are just . . . way too judgmental these days."
(*Author's note: Yes, I have to admit: I am truthfully a very judgmental person and no, I am not [feeling 100%] truthfully proud of being judgmental; no, just truthfully heck no.)
