Author’s note: I haven’t been feeling as if I want to do any writing lately and seriously; I am always wondering the big question I need to answer personally ‘When I am going to do another writing?’—The answer is ‘Definitely I don’t know’ thus I’ll definitely update this writing with images I’ll upload personally then I’ll delete it personally for your information.
Anyway, I am inspired by a song everybody heard but me back in the past on ‘Here we go again’ by Trina featuring Kelly Rowland.
And a couple of songs I have listened to lately on 'Heal the pain' by Nite Owl and 'Deja Vu' by Blue Flame Mega from the Winter Pop Mix I found from a channel on YouTube called 'Play the music'.
My personal Twitter: https://twitter.com/LibraChaz
Plus this is something I do not expect at all . . .
Oh and this takes place during sophomore year in UH on this Fan fiction.
Oh and this takes place during sophomore year in UH on this Fan fiction.
Anyway, all images goes to the original photographers and the original people who managed to upload it on social media.
Credit of Image no 1 on USA Women's Volleyball team under 21 Team link by USA Volleyball: https://twitter.com/usavolleyball/status/886095276066435078
Credit of the image no 2 goes to Hawaii Warrior World for their MPSF Swim and Dive Team image:
https://twitter.com/hawaiiwworld/status/1231703347847024640
Credit of Image no 3 goes to Cindy Luis on Chaz Galloway on his Sweet and Sour Steph Curry's Sevens pair of shoe from Under Armour.
https://twitter.com/hawaiiwworld/status/1231703347847024640
Credit of Image no 3 goes to Cindy Luis on Chaz Galloway on his Sweet and Sour Steph Curry's Sevens pair of shoe from Under Armour.
“I’m so sorry if I couldn’t win for UH at this point, sir.” I apologized genuinely guilty yet feeling upset at same time about how I felt as if I am bringing down everybody and the team for the information they needed.
“Why . . . why are you apologizing to me for what you have done on not winning, young lady? I know you did an amazing job and I seen you swim many times in practice and even your uncle as well as your friends are impressed with what you did out there.”
I look down to the floor, feeling truthfully apologetic about what I said about winning, I know I did come here to have fun yet to add the experience as part of a resume just in case since you never know when they are going to ask you about college experience.
“I know but . . . I just . . . I . . .”
“What? Perhaps you did feel as if you wanted to have a change of plan in your game plan?”
“Maybe . . .” But Elliot give me a look which says ‘Do not lie to me, you do have something here.’
“Okay, okay: I know I hadn’t got any experience from high school though I decided to try something new yet something I wanted to do for a very long time ever since when I first arrived to Hawaii when I am very young plus when I joined the team—I thought I could have fun at first then after that, today: all of the sudden—I suddenly felt as if I wanted to win for the team at this point.”
“I know but do you remember the first time when you first joined the team?” He asked me truthfully softly yet in a calm tone as well ever since this is the first time I found out about how people treated me so differently to others—I don’t know is it because are they genuinely concerned about me just as when they ask the question I always get frequently:
“Are you okay?”
I just didn’t know why but the people in my circle other than my family kept on asking me (*I am talking here about the real people who truthfully care about me in this story such as Katiana ‘Ana’ Ponce: Mathieu Richard (*Obviously): Chaz Galloway, Eleu Choy and Shea Suzumoto) the same question on ‘Are you okay?’ as well as everybody else ever since they are truthfully worried about me as well as the people who may not know me well but who aren’t my friends.
Honestly; I wasn’t so sure why would people ask me the question ‘Are you okay?’ over and over again but I knew I am going to answer personally with a huge painful life of ‘Yes, I am okay’ but on the inside: I don’t think so on the other hand as I am not feeling truthfully okay yet I wish I can share my personal pain I am suffering from mentally and emotionally without anyone or anybody to become so judgmental when it comes to me sharing my personal story for real.
“Yeah . . . yeah: I am feeling okay; truthfully okay.”
“Okay; but are you sure?”
“Yes, I am; sir—sorry, I am just feeling tired.”
“Oh dear, I’d think you are working around the clock all too often without any rest just as instantly on an example of how a hamster is on a hamster wheel—going around and round nonstop for real without having a rest from work or having the time off from work.”
“What do you mean by the example of a hamster nonstop running around the hamster wheel or the hamster ball on how we work around nonstop, sir?”
“Well . . . you can think of how we normally procrastinate on a project we are creating just for fun or either maybe it is for our subscribers, followers and viewers—when we procrastinate on something: we are avoiding doing the important task of completing it by a certain deadline yet we are trying to avoid doing something to make it worse or avoid a demonstrating the lack of ability in front of our peers plus we never know why are we procrastinating; is it either for fun or are we doing this for someone or somebody else or are we doing it out of anxiety.”
“Oh.”
“Wait, there is more. You know how when people have different hours of work? I mean many of us work at a typical nine to five jobs at a regular office but sometimes we didn’t know how there are people who had to work for a long period of hours as when you are at the hospital?”
I look confused, truthfully confused and I wasn’t sure what to say next.
“Ah, what I mean is how people who are medical workers, medical students and people who work in medical industries (*Now as in essential business/ essential work): they do normally have to work a long period of hours as in either more than ten hours of work or sometimes they have to work without any sleep or even the time for them to take the time off from work as they need to spend their time with their family and friends as well as their own personal alone time at home—they felt as if they are punishing their mind and their health emotionally to work on a long period of hours personally which sadly leads to a lot of depression and personal mental issues they are suffering from honestly yet truthfully they couldn’t speak up about their personal mental health without having others to judge you on the story unfortunately.”
“Oh, so no wonder there are those who are working for a really long period of hours at work based on which industry are they working at.”
“Exactly; thus this is why I am going to tell you something from the very beginning of how you joined in the club.”
~Flashback to the beginning of sophomore year ~
Just when I look at the notice board; I heard there are so many different try outs in sports as well as cheerleading however the one try out notice which really stands out to me is a light blue paper with a clean font yet title
“So do you know the reason why are you joining the team?”
“Well, I do wanted to join the team to try something new yet I wanted to make my college year count as an experience.”
“Okay: and did you have any experience in high school?”
Author’s note: Wow, this is quite long the writing and no, I don’t know what title I should call this writing and this year is really tough year ever since I got a lot of personal issues I am having with me, myself and I--I'm sorry but when it comes to Part 2 of the writing; I will only write it just when I have the time but if I am not then I am sorry--this year has been really a stressful year with all of the negative situation is on-going for your personal information.
And thank you for reading this random writing from me to you.
“No, I didn’t; sir.”
“Oh,”
“Look, I’m sorry; sir: if you want to me to leave—I can leave the team immediately additionally I’ll just—“
“Calm down, if he rejects you then just say ’Thank you’ calmly: and then find something else to do.” I thought about Michelle’s advice on how rejection can be something good as well as it can be a message from the universe—when one door closes; another one will open.
As I got up to the door; Elliot called me out “Wait, Paula.”
I turned around and looked at his face—eye to eye on the contact between each other.
I felt as if I wanted to break the eye contact between each other instantly as an example on how sometimes I scare everybody off by breaking the eye contact and they got scared mostly because I am mimicking their moves while we are still having the eye contact between each other.
“Can you sit back down? Maybe van we have a talk about your application?”
I got back to the chair and sit back down.
“Okay, I know you do not have any experience but ever since you did go surfing then how about maybe I can review your application first before either accepting it or rejecting it but I’ll try to review it first; okay?”
“Okay.”
A couple of hours later; he called me ever since the team is full: I am either on a wait list or am I rejected.
Thus when I got back to my dorm room I shared with Ana; I told Ana about how I wanted to join the team ever since I decided to try something new yet I need to add something into surfing yet for many of the surfers—it is crucial for them to do it just before they can stand up on a surfboard.
“Oh Ana, what I am going do? Should I just move on or something like that if I am rejected.”
“Well . . . just when you mentioned about rejection; I’d think you need to think again, sweetie.”
“But why is that?”
Ana told me about how the universe works from our philosophies and thoughts while she read many of the books on The law of Attraction or common known as ‘The Secret’ by Rhonda Brynes and her team during her study break: as well as the Secret series too as well on her reading list then she told me maybe I can learn to give a proper prayer to god as well as to let the universe know you ARE ON the team—even if you aren’t; that’s okay.
“Oh, I didn’t know it unfortunately until now even though I read the book several times.”
“Don’t worry, I’ll help you at this point with the counselor I have spoke to additionally we can help you on how you can use the power of the universe, Paula.”
“Wow, really? Thank you, Ana—this is why I am truthfully happy to have you around; not just as a friend and a roommate but also a personal counselor too as well.”
“Sure and don’t worry, I’ll make this work on the power of gratitude, the power of prayer and the power of the universe—I promise for real.”
“Thank you, Ana—you are the best.”
“You’re welcome and thank you for asking me the question because it is really truthfully hard for people to ask the question though thankfully you managed to ask the question to me; many would have been left the question unasked however when I read on ‘Love for imperfect things’—it is important to for you to ask the question especially the ones on something important yet something based on how people are really scared to ask the other person about though sometimes you just never know when you need the support from the other person about something personal.”
“Oh,”
“Exactly, you need to understand about how you need to ask the question to the person.”
“Okay, so where can we get it started here?”
Ana and I—we both read together on a lot of books which speaks about ‘The law of attraction’, the power of universe and the power of “*The Secret” (*Author’s note: We are talking 'The Secret' Book series here for your personal information here by Rhonda Brynes.)
Author’s note: Wow, this is quite long the writing and no, I don’t know what title I should call this writing and this year is really tough year ever since I got a lot of personal issues I am having with me, myself and I--I'm sorry but when it comes to Part 2 of the writing; I will only write it just when I have the time but if I am not then I am sorry--this year has been really a stressful year with all of the negative situation is on-going for your personal information.
And thank you for reading this random writing from me to you.
