Author’s note: This is my second time writing about Chaz and Narrator plus also there will memories of the past additionally while moving in as well as learning to manage yourself personally on financially, physically; mentally and emotionally as well ever since I felt like I wanted to write.
Oh and for your information; I have been listening to a lot of Lofi music plus there are some which are my favourite such as Jordy Chandra whom I enjoyed on ‘Puddles’, featuring Jay Lounge ‘Reminiscing night’; ’Talking to you on a rainy day’: ‘A cold rainy night’: ’Sometimes things go wrong’; ‘Will you stay with me?’; ‘You are near yet so far’: ‘When you’re mine and I’m yours’ plus personally I love ‘Can we make each other really happy?’ In addition to ‘The journey to find self’: ’Soulful eyes’ by another Lofi artist called Hoogway, ‘Carefree’ by Too ugly: ‘Taking you for a ride’ by Pandrezz: ‘Faro’ by J’San and Foolish Heart by Ninjoi.
Sorry if this is too long however this is the list of lofi music I have enjoyed lately. (*I will make a list version of it here)
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With my new relationship while getting in touch with a new outside hitter and Freshman Chaz Galloway plus a new place in San Diego, I felt like there are so much changes on me—not just physically however it is mentally and emotionally as well ever since I had become more and more comfortable in my skin just as when I am in my own element.
I don’t know either is it how different San Diego is to Santa Monica, Los Angeles and many of the other areas in California.
I might think California is wonderful though it is just how different the areas are.
Some prefer to be up north in San Francisco, some prefer to be in Central California such as Monterey; Santa Cruz: others prefer to be either in Los Angeles; Long Beach; Santa Monica or even San Diego.
I not only do so much yoga and meditation; however I went for a run in the morning as well as in the evening plus Ava and I—we had been learning how to cook as well whenever I go to Ava’s home.
Plus thankfully with Ava and her parents are teaching me how to cook additionally knowing how important is to place small tasks of cleaning the apartment on weekends therefore there are time for us to spend time together with family and friends.
Without Ava, I would feel lost in this journey additionally I would have planned to go back to Seattle however Ava told me I can stay with her in San Diego plus this makes me want to re-think of the choice I am now making in life.
I don’t know what makes me re-think of my choices in my life.
Perhaps it is the energy in San Diego either from people or perhaps the location open its doors to me.
I don’t know what it is however I do remember the words of wisdom and advice from my dad is “Sometimes when one door is closed; that means this chapter in this story is over then another door will be open to you just like how when we made mistakes in life or when we are faced with rejection—that means the universe is bringing us into a different direction in our lives additionally this makes us think differently from what we are used to think of or how we usually think. In addition; it also sent a sacred message from the universe and god to us on how they have a plan in store just for us.”
Even though after the break up between me and Austin which is one of the worst break up I had to go through and when I have to go through this, it does hurts our relationship between us so much; my dad did leave me a genuine voicemail of a true apology on how he told he is truly extremely sorry to hear I am going through very difficult times additionally I ignored all calls, voicemails and text messages from him.
Perhaps instead of going back to Seattle, I started to think of perhaps I can either go to a community university or a community college in San Diego while working on my major scholarship in either writing or art.
Or even anything to do with creativity in addition to getting a job thus I can pay on the bills additionally the property loans on my new apartment, the vehicle loan on the car I am planning on while saving it for groceries as well as doing small chores in my apartment during the weekdays after the classes and tuitions I am saving for it too as well other than saving the money for college-university loans, property loans and the vehicle loans too.
It may be tough at first however I had learned from a self help book, it is important to manage yourself without the help of your family members [Including relatives as well as the in-laws], the help of your friends additionally without the help of your partner or ex-partner; roommate or anybody.
After all, nobody is going to help you in life when you are getting older: you got to manage it yourself and do it yourself.
Plus I have to learn all of these rules while adapting to the new world in addition to managing me, myself and I without anybody’s help especially when you are getting older additionally you got to get your life together just before you become an old man or an old woman.
This is the lessons I got to learn in life.
While I am spending time in the empty guest room in my new apartment which feels nice because not only you have a platform of an indoor balcony overlooking the skyline of San Diego additionally in the master bedroom which is just across from the living room with a door [I am inspired by an apartment in Kuala Lumpur personally], it has a beautiful floor to ceiling length window with another half of the skyline of San Diego.
However it also does feel empty yet lonely because mostly this os my first time being away from everybody in my life additionally this is my first time being away from my family on both New York City [Mom and brother] and Seattle [Father] for the very first time.
Plus even though I had my friends around me however I just didn’t have a family I wish I would have.
I am unboxing some of the items I brought with me from the old apartment as for the rest of the items are either discarded, donated and sold away to others who wanted it more than anything.
The first item is a seldom yet a beautiful painting of the Marina Bay Sands building with Helix Bridge as the foreground in the painting at night by an artist whom used to do so many art on the iconic landmarks of the world additionally it is hard to know who is the artist ever since two witnesses—his wife *Jane and an old ex-best friend from school additionally a former classmate who go to school together only can be known as *Frankie had told before the artist went missing—they contacted him sometimes a week ago about how he [The unnamed artist] planned to open an art business and showroom in Chicago before he vanish into thin air.
The two explained on another information the artist is very secretive mostly he wasn’t into sharing his life with the world except for people whom he begin to consider as a friend just after getting to know about each other deeply about their lives.
Additionally he did art mostly because when he is younger; he started to do the art ever since his family wasn’t always a happy family with the arguments on financial issues as well as how his father is a drug and alcohol addict plus by the time when he is only a young teenager; he went with his mom by moving out to San Francisco thus he had to help her out while doing art on buildings and architecture.
His first art was the golden gate bridge back in the 2000s, then later, he did more art on the rest of California scenery before moving onto the foreign country collection.
The first art from him is the distinctive Acropolis building in Athens, Greece (I have been there last year personally additionally James, Dimitrios and Spyros are from Greece); then the second art is the coliseum in Rome, Italy before an art which is so popular with many people as we know it is the Eiffel Tower in France which he decided to make more for everybody while selling many other copies of it.
He told everybody he didn’t get tired of painting a picture of the Eiffel Tower ever since this is one of his favourite iconic landmarks in Europe however his hands become stiff and painful just as when he is on a picture which he is planning to sell it as well just before moving on to the other buildings.
Then there are the others, such as the Pyramids of Egypt; Table Mountain in South Africa: Sydney Opera house in Australia, the scenery landscape of New Zealand in both Islands: Petronas Twin Towers in Kuala Lumpur, the Marina Bay Sands in Singapore plus the last art he did before he vanished is the Al Burj Khalifa of UAE.
The art he made on these buildings are just wonderful which made so many people want to buy them, use for them additionally even to copy it however I would consider it is best they ask his permission on the idea of the art instead of using it without his permission.
(*This is why art thieves can be way too common in both real life and on the internet as well!)
No one exactly know his name except they know he use his artist name by the name of Jared to the outside world while his real name can only be known by the people who does truthfully trust him.
With his missing case is still ongoing just before they close the case; I remember now in memory of Jared—the missing artist who does these wonderful art on the landmarks of the world now is being sold out to everybody especially at flea markets where many did rare finds and now many people bought it for their homes.
James originally founded the art for his apartment however ever since I couldn’t stop happily talking about Singapore, he decided to give the art to me as a present.
I thought it is best for him to keep it personally however James think it might go well with the bright, airy yet a spacious interior design of my new San Diego apartment.
Thankfully I thank James however he told me ‘No need to thank me, beautiful young lady! I’d think the art suits you more so than me.’
After that, I decided to take the art with me ever since I know Austin would throw it out as he is a changed person at UCLA and at Los Angeles—I don’t want to throw it away ever since firstly it is a ‘Once upon a time’ to me and James; secondly I know James had worked so hard to find this art plus thirdly I know this is my only link and an item which does reminds me of my friendship between me and James additionally last but not least: not only I do love Singapore so much by chattering about it happily; in addition: Chaz asked me to keep it thus I can remember James on the friendship and memories we had by in the past.
Now, with the art is unboxed however it is still wrapped in bubble wrap; I unpacked more items which reminds me of the old memories I used to have with the players just before they are either transferred or they are graduated from there.
There is an adorable Pink Panther painting which Joe Worsley found for me which says ‘Why be boring when you can be pink!’ With an adorable Pink Panther on the right side of the quote.
I’d think this reminds me of how we need to know we couldn’t just take life too seriously as life is too short just to either stay negative or be negative.
I smiled, this art does makes me very happy because firstly there is Pink Panther then the quote says ‘Why be boring when you can be pink!’ Is like ‘Why be boring when you can be ridiculous!’ Or to be crazy; or to be weird or whatever that means to think out of the box, to go outside your comfort zone; be positive and keep smiling and have a laugh while you are still living and breathing.
Normally Joe isn’t into any art like this one however he decided to buy this art for me anyway ever since it is very seldom find.
The next item is from the girls which are a different shapes of photo frames with silver photo frames ever since they wanted to give something like this thus when we are taking pictures; a picture can last forever additionally it speaks a thousand words more so than words however I still hadn’t decided on the picture of what I wanted to place in the photo frame additionally I did have many of the photos with the girls at different location however it is difficult for me to choose one ever since we had to choose the right angle; right lightning on the right angle additionally making sure the photo looks good.
Although it is meant to be for wedding pictures however the girls couldn’t resist it thus they decided to go for it as birthday gifts to me.
Even Kathleen who did mainly travel mostly it is because of how we ask her to go to California thus she thankfully managed to do it however we truly understand why she very seldom travel unless there is a purpose then we just learn to accept it as it is what it is.
Anyway, I also unpacked more items; a beautiful fancy tissue box made of bits and pieces of mother of pearl as well as items that can be found on the beach additionally I don’t remember anything about the gift however I decided to keep it anyway.
The next gift is a three wick candle in Turquoise Waters from Bath and Body Works which Dorla had found it just for me additionally the candle holder is also the same as well.
I felt thankful I manage to save the more seldom yet precious gifts from the old apartment and even the music CDs I owned; make-up items I bought with my own budget additionally some are given by Michelle and Promise: perfumes as well additionally so many items I decided to bring it with me.
While I am unboxing a box with some of the items inside the box, I heard a doorbell ring.
“Hey, I coming!” I called out while I am walking to the door through the long mirrored corridor—this is the reason why I truly love my new apartment.
As I open the door; my first thought is either Michelle or Promise; or even one of the girls: a second thought is on Jose or the attorney whom I still have signing the papers to deal with however it is neither one of my girls nor it is the attorney or Jose.
It is Chaz who is now standing at the door with a bouquet of flowers which is surprising because Austin does it sometimes when our relationship was still very happy and easy-going however when Chaz got a bouquet; it felt as when he got a very exclusive yet very seldom bouquet of flowers.
It may be expensive plus normally it is reserved for weddings or parties or graduation however it is worth it as well.
“Oh hey Chaz,” I greet with a genuine smile to him.
“Hello, I decided to get a bouquet just for you ever since I known you the other day when you told me you move from Santa Monica to San Diego.” He replied happily with a returning smile.
“Oh wow, thank you.” I replied while carrying it to the new yet bigger and more spacious kitchen.
“Thus . . . do you actually love San Diego?” He ask with a smile.
“Oh definitely; I am starting to get a hang of it.” I replied while taking out a glass vase which I have packed with me just when I am on the move.
“Cool,”
While I go over to the basin to fulfil it with water for the flower; he sits down on one of the bar stools while watching me fulfilling the vase plus preparing for the flowers.
“Hey, can you give a bit of help here? Thanks.” I called.
“Sure, anything for you; my beautiful lady.” He replied while getting down from the stool.
He helped me with the vase while I arrange the flowers.
“So where do you want to place it? Since they do need sunlight.”
“I have no idea.”
“What do you say at the place where you want to place a shelf or something like that in the living room or something like that?”
“I like that idea however I am thinking of placing it on a coffee table ever since there is a foldable coffee table left at here thus may be we place it in the centre of the living room.”
“Sounds like a good idea, however did you find the vase to be heavy?”
“Without the water, it felt light however with it in there; it does feel heavy.”
“Oh, okay . . .”
While we both set the flowers and the vase; when we are finished—the results turns out to be amazing. “Wow, I knew this is going to be wonderful; thanks Chaz!” I replied with a glow of excitement.
“Hey, you too: Paula—you know I did tried my best to look for a beautiful bouquet thus to make you happy yet to welcome you and to feel better as well.”
“Oh wow, thank you: Chaz.”
“You’re welcome, what do you think?”
“I’d think it is wonderful; Chaz especially with the sunlight in the background; it does look very artistic.”
“Yeah; me too except you didn’t have any furnishings yet.”
“Sorry, it is still empty; Chaz.”
“No worries, I got to say—love your new apartment and love too as well.”
“Thank you, Chaz and thank you for the beautiful flowers you had given it to me.”
“You’re welcome.”
While he is on the way out; he ask me: “Hey are you coming?”
“Coming to what?”
“To our game at a stadium, I will be playing tonight along with James ever since Charlie want a different lineup for the game plus you can also invite your friends as well thus after that, we can take away something and last but not least, we can spend time at here in your apartment.”
“Sounds like a good idea.” I replied with a genuine smile on my face.
“Cool, I’ll see you at the game then?”
“See you there; Chaz.”
“Awesome; it is a date.”
